fuck
fuck this shit
fuck this life
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
Fuck these rules ,
fuck the system
fuck the truth ,
i wont listen ,
i refuse to be a slave
to this useless wisdom
all this talk , those euphemisms too persistent ,
Fear .. swallowing my mind like a tumor , rigor mortis ensued
im livin my life , like a fucking movie statistic
stuck in this loop , in this stupid prison
singin the blues while my youth is slippin
' away
til' im used up , bitter and grey
, brooding over a wasted life , caught in a maze
chose to go the easy road , swinging away
all my worries til' im buried in a miserable grave .
And when i reminiscense on my Life , i see nothing but a Joke , just a cynical tale .
Of Failure , of regret , wrong decisions i made ,
thinkin i was so clever , thinkin i was so great
but in the end i was nothing more than a Prisoner of Fate .
it makes me wanna put the silencer to my head
let my brainmatter paint the wall ,
all goes quiet , finally i can rest
let this train of thought glide off the tracks ,
and everything ends
in a smouldering , fiery wreck .
-------------------------------
my dreams , my ambitions ,
just memories in the distance ,
it all fades to black , this futile existence
i lost my will , lost my mind , lost my youthful spirit
my inner child , beaten , abused , belittled ,
swallowed by indifference and soothed by consumerism
a sad shadow of a man , a reclusive misfit
walking through life without a mission ,
draggin' behind in the distance
while everyone else achieves their ambitions ,
posessing every trait i lack
willpower , discipline and persistence .
I was born to be a Man , born to be free ,
but i became , everything i never wanted to be ,
everything i hated as a child ,
a fucking coward , exhausted , defeated ,
comfortably numb , dancing to a monotone beat
i talked and i talked , caught in a dream ,
many people tried , tried to force me to breathe
force me to believe their lies and fall to my knees
, be thankful for a life that was forced upon me .
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
and so on and so forth
just venting my autism here
just writing what comes to my mind
fuck this shit
fuck this life
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
Fuck these rules ,
fuck the system
fuck the truth ,
i wont listen ,
i refuse to be a slave
to this useless wisdom
all this talk , those euphemisms too persistent ,
Fear .. swallowing my mind like a tumor , rigor mortis ensued
im livin my life , like a fucking movie statistic
stuck in this loop , in this stupid prison
singin the blues while my youth is slippin
' away
til' im used up , bitter and grey
, brooding over a wasted life , caught in a maze
chose to go the easy road , swinging away
all my worries til' im buried in a miserable grave .
And when i reminiscense on my Life , i see nothing but a Joke , just a cynical tale .
Of Failure , of regret , wrong decisions i made ,
thinkin i was so clever , thinkin i was so great
but in the end i was nothing more than a Prisoner of Fate .
it makes me wanna put the silencer to my head
let my brainmatter paint the wall ,
all goes quiet , finally i can rest
let this train of thought glide off the tracks ,
and everything ends
in a smouldering , fiery wreck .
-------------------------------
my dreams , my ambitions ,
just memories in the distance ,
it all fades to black , this futile existence
i lost my will , lost my mind , lost my youthful spirit
my inner child , beaten , abused , belittled ,
swallowed by indifference and soothed by consumerism
a sad shadow of a man , a reclusive misfit
walking through life without a mission ,
draggin' behind in the distance
while everyone else achieves their ambitions ,
posessing every trait i lack
willpower , discipline and persistence .
I was born to be a Man , born to be free ,
but i became , everything i never wanted to be ,
everything i hated as a child ,
a fucking coward , exhausted , defeated ,
comfortably numb , dancing to a monotone beat
i talked and i talked , caught in a dream ,
many people tried , tried to force me to breathe
force me to believe their lies and fall to my knees
, be thankful for a life that was forced upon me .
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
and so on and so forth
just venting my autism here
just writing what comes to my mind
