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26 y/o KHHV friendless
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I had a really hard time as a very shy ugly kid, with autistic traits.
So let's start:
1. Kindergarden. Almost no kid wanted to play with me and I was completely friendless. I used to have at the kindergarden a stuffed elephant and play with him in a corner alone. My educator told my mother I am very scared and I lack basic social skills and to go to a therapist to see if I am autistic or not. And at 4 years and a half I was diagnosed with Asperger's. Kids didn't want to share their toys with me and sometimes the educator left me in the corner of the room in my world.
2. School. Been bullied by both older guys and classmates. They used to steal my food, paint my jacket with the pen, laugh at me, putting gum in my hair or on my chair, saying to the teacher nasty things which I didn't even do. Laughing at me daily because my teeth were really crooked, my nose big and I had really shaky hands. I remember nobody wanted to stay near me during classes, just another ugly scared guy like me. I stayed usually in the last bench. I had 0 talent at drawing or sport so I remember how bad my classmates were laughing at me abd I ended up crying multiple times. I got beaten also by bigger guys and I lost one temporary tooth this way and when the teachers saw me they laughed at me.
2. Highschool. Hell of my life. Bullied and laughed at daily for my shaky hands, shyness, lack of intelligence and social skills. Even teachers laughed few times at me when they saw me how "smart" I am. I remember one teacher asked me to stay in the last desk in tge back corner of the class to stop seeing my stupid face in front of the class. He also laughed at how shaky I was and that I wasn't capable of understanding his object. He called me idiot few times in front of the class. My classmates usually ignored me or been unfriendly with me. They put pics with me on social media looking like shit. I remember one time in 11th grade I asked my crush out and she said yes. And I came at the time she told me on a Saturday in front of a cafeteria. I arrived to meet with her 23 yo boyfriend and her kissing in front of me. He told me "Go home fucking loser and use your hand. You will never experience this and if you continue to talk to my girlfriend I will punch you in that ugly face. And the girl was laughing and approved. And then all class knew what happened and all people laughed.
I also went to prom. Maximum humiliation. I spent my entire evening at a table on my phone playing Candy Crush. No girl wanted to dance with me. I asked few girls to have a pic with me with my shaky voice and they said no and started laughing. I was treated like an alien, all people had fun, except myself.
So I had a terrible childhood and teenhood. In college, I was bullied less, but ghosted by almost all people and 0 friends and no attention from girls.
So let's start:
1. Kindergarden. Almost no kid wanted to play with me and I was completely friendless. I used to have at the kindergarden a stuffed elephant and play with him in a corner alone. My educator told my mother I am very scared and I lack basic social skills and to go to a therapist to see if I am autistic or not. And at 4 years and a half I was diagnosed with Asperger's. Kids didn't want to share their toys with me and sometimes the educator left me in the corner of the room in my world.
2. School. Been bullied by both older guys and classmates. They used to steal my food, paint my jacket with the pen, laugh at me, putting gum in my hair or on my chair, saying to the teacher nasty things which I didn't even do. Laughing at me daily because my teeth were really crooked, my nose big and I had really shaky hands. I remember nobody wanted to stay near me during classes, just another ugly scared guy like me. I stayed usually in the last bench. I had 0 talent at drawing or sport so I remember how bad my classmates were laughing at me abd I ended up crying multiple times. I got beaten also by bigger guys and I lost one temporary tooth this way and when the teachers saw me they laughed at me.
2. Highschool. Hell of my life. Bullied and laughed at daily for my shaky hands, shyness, lack of intelligence and social skills. Even teachers laughed few times at me when they saw me how "smart" I am. I remember one teacher asked me to stay in the last desk in tge back corner of the class to stop seeing my stupid face in front of the class. He also laughed at how shaky I was and that I wasn't capable of understanding his object. He called me idiot few times in front of the class. My classmates usually ignored me or been unfriendly with me. They put pics with me on social media looking like shit. I remember one time in 11th grade I asked my crush out and she said yes. And I came at the time she told me on a Saturday in front of a cafeteria. I arrived to meet with her 23 yo boyfriend and her kissing in front of me. He told me "Go home fucking loser and use your hand. You will never experience this and if you continue to talk to my girlfriend I will punch you in that ugly face. And the girl was laughing and approved. And then all class knew what happened and all people laughed.
I also went to prom. Maximum humiliation. I spent my entire evening at a table on my phone playing Candy Crush. No girl wanted to dance with me. I asked few girls to have a pic with me with my shaky voice and they said no and started laughing. I was treated like an alien, all people had fun, except myself.
So I had a terrible childhood and teenhood. In college, I was bullied less, but ghosted by almost all people and 0 friends and no attention from girls.