subhuman
Fuck it, we ball
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I'm gradually losing it. All I have are negative thoughts, constantly thinking about suicide, everything that's supposed to bring joy only causes me suffering, you know the drill. I was reading some Houellebecq and he says that most depressed people are just touch starved:
I think that if I could fulfill my need for female touch with prostitutes I wouldn't be depressed. I wasn't depressed this summer when I was shagging whores every day. Unfortunately, at this point in my life this isn't something I can do. I am studentcel and my area is fucking dogshit for whores. I am literally a whole days drive from anywhere with good whores. So it feels like I am in purgatory and my depression is becoming all encompassing, I am consumed by apathyThe idea gradually dawned on me that all these people were not in the least deranged; they were simply lacking in love. Their gestures, their attitudes, their dumb show betrayed an excruciating craving for physical contact and caresses; but that wasn't possible of course. So they sobbed, emitted cries, lacerated themselves with their nails; during my stay we had a successful attempt at castration.