I didn't even feel like a human, when you combine being a virgin with my level of isolation. The problem was that I couldn't really relate to anyone irl.
But I think most men who stay virgins for long enough will pay evenutally, with maybe the exception of some permaneet rotters.
1. At a certain point you won't be able to enjoy it anymore, imagine having your first time at 50. I was shocked how much my back and pelvis was hurting after a while JFL, a 50 year old virgin won't even be able to do 20 proper strokes, he might even blow his back out
Sex is something that you can't really wait to learn, you have to start doing it whilst you are still near your prime or in your prime, if you start off too late you'll never really enjoy yourself, it will feel too weird and you won't even have the energy to really enjoy yourself
Before I start back escortcelling I definitely have to get back in shape, and I'm doing a lot of lower back exercises and weighted hip thrusts lol
2. TBH I don't think I will ever relate to everyone, I often feel like I'm "playing my life" in "3rd person".
Everybody else is in 1st person mode and they are "really themselves", but I'm just so outside of regular human reality with the way I think and the things I believe, and all the quirks I've built up over the years, that I sometimes catch myself feeling like I'm "piloting" my body, this probably sounds crazy as hell (I know). Its this weird and surreal feeling, sometimes I feel like I'm inside my body rather than "being my body" (which I can tell is the experience for normies), and in that moment I'm just very self-aware of everything and I start overthinking things, and I drift off into thought.
I have to basically wait for myself to drift back into normalcy, in the same way that when you tell yourself "I'm breathing right now" and think about it, your body stops breathing for you and you have to breathe manually, and you have to basically zone out and stop thinking about it to go back to auto breathing, its like that, I have to try and zone out and not be self aware so that I can go back to "normal mode" and "feel like I'm myself"
I don't just go to the bathroom, I'll be at work and I'll tell myself "were" going to the bathroom then "were" going back to work, like my body is some kind of separate entity (I probably have gone crazy years ago
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I have to say though, this feeling and experience is happening less and less the more I pursue my goals and get closer to them, its like I'm cementing myself into this reality by inching my way closer towards my dream life, and I'll only ever really "become a person" once I've done that