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I’m sorry if I’m writing bad I’m kinda emotionally drained and have been for the 3 weeks.
So I proposed to the love of my life 2 months ago. Shes amazing and she’s the only woman for me. When I proposed she post a picture of us on Instagram and Facebook. Apparently her ex saw it and reached out to her. He isn’t over her and kept trying to get her to meet up with him. She rejected and blocked him. I blocked him too just so he couldn’t say anything to me.
3 weeks ago I received a message from a blank Instagram account, it was a video thumbnail of my fiancée being penetrated and the words, “Your fiancée misses my dick”. I don’t know why but I made the awful awful mistake of watching the video it was only like 2 minutes but it was the longest, most painful 2 minutes of my life. I wanted to believe it wasn’t her, but she has a tattoo on her back that’s incredibly distinct.
First off the guy was hung, he was fucking huge and my fiancée just loved it. She made comments about it. She said she enjoyed its size. This same is the same women that tells me that 5 inches feels the best to her. She was reacting in ways she never had with me in he 4 years we have been together. I’ve never been able to make her moan like that, I’ve never been able to make her orgasm so intensely that her body shakes, and I’ve never been able to pleasure her like he could. I felt so small, like I’m not a real man, like I’m not able to please her at all. I can’t live up to what she had before. I can’t pleasure the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with.
He sent more photos, some of them having vaginal, some of them doing anal. But the worst one was her with his dick in her fucking mouth. He sent another message saying that he was the best she’s ever had, and that she will never forget how good he used to fuck her. He then said to not be surprised when she gets tired of me and comes back to him.
I told my fiancée and she reported him for revenge porn and she’s now trying to take care of me. She was sympathetic that I saw what I saw. She said that she regretted everything she did with him and if she could take it back she would. She also said that looking back it’s bad sex because she didn’t love him. She even said that she enjoys sex with me so much more because were soulmates and sex is more than just our genitals being touched. I know she’s lying. She knows she enjoyed sex with him more than sex with me and now she’s just trying to make me feel better. If she was being honest she’d act the same way she did in bed she did with him.
We haven’t had sex in the last 3 weeks, she’s tried and I tried, but I just can’t get it up for too long. The second penetration starts I get flashbacks to the video and pictures and I nearly start crying and lose my erection. She’s been trying to make me feel better but I just can’t I feel emasculated and embarrassed like I’ve been cheated on.
Edit- I just want to say. Im not blaming my fiancée, this is in no way shape or form her fault. I’ve been doing my best to comfort her through this. She was afraid to report him, I was the one that convinced her that she should. I know she’s the bigger victim here, but I really can’t help but be hurt.
Also it’s so much easier knowing that in the back of my mind, my fiancée was probably with some well hung guy that blew her mind, and that she’s will to settle for whatever I can give her in bed because she loves me, than seeing my fiancée getting the absolute shit fucked out of her and her loving sex with someone else so much more than sex with me, and having her needs satisfied more than I can do for her.
It’s unrealistic to expect to be the very best of anything she’s had. But seeing someone do something so intimate with the person you want to spend the rest of your life with, and them enjoy that intimacy so much more, just hurts so fucking much.