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I know that it's over. Yet, sometimes when I'm out in public, and I see an attractive woman, I'll start to automatically do things like, fixing my hair, standing up straighter ect in an attempt to make myself attractive to her. Every time I catch myself doing this I get pissed off at myself for being delusional enough to think that I'd have a chance even if the foid looked my way. Yesterday, I went to a shop near my house and the chashier was a pretty cute foid and she was nice to me but I know the only reason she was even acknowledging me in the first place was because it's her job and she has to, yet the whole walk home after I was replaying talking to her at the counter in my head and it was so annoying. It's like I know it's over on a conscious level but subconsciously I still have this delusional hope about being able to be with a woman. It would be so much more peaceful for me if I could just fully accept that I'll always be alone and end this false hope inside me but it continues to persist. It's kind of like how when a suicidal person ropes they still try to breathe and fight to survive even though they want to die because their survival instinct kicks in. I still seem to hold onto some sort of urge to ascend inceldom even though I know it's impossible and any hope for change is simply delusion.
Has anyone else experienced this? If so, did you eventually come to terms with your predicament and is there anything I can do to speed up this process?
Has anyone else experienced this? If so, did you eventually come to terms with your predicament and is there anything I can do to speed up this process?
