I can't believe that I live in this huge world with so many things to do and yet I have no interests, nothing I like to do.

[Deleted member 7448]

Even as a kid I was like this. I rushed and skipped everything else just to watch TV or consume media by browsing sites or playing games. That's all I really did in life, didn't like doing anything else.

It got worse as a teen since I became depressed and anhedonic, but that's neither here nor there.

What I don't understand is why, despite trying so hard and so long to like things, to find just 1 interest, there's just nothing that piques my interest. Not one god damn thing. What kind of lemon brain do I have, shit's broken.

It's such a big world with so many things to do, it makes no sense, why am I like this?

 

[Selinity]

Have you tried going on a dopamine fast? Get off tech for a week, even if you're bored as fuck. After that your dopamine receptors will be healed a bit and you'll enjoy things a lot more.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Have you tried going on a dopamine fast? Get off tech for a week, even if you're bored as fuck. After that your dopamine receptors will be healed a bit and you'll enjoy things a lot more.

I actually did try it, and nothing was interesting either. I mean, sure, some things were better than staring at the ceiling doing nothing, but they're not really interesting enough and I'd much rather lie in bed doing nothing and consuming media than do them. I want something interesting enough that I wouldn't consider just rotting in bed browsing the internet to be a preferable alternative, but nothing was interesting enough.

 

[Deleted member 21768]

There's many things to do? All I can think of is video games and drawing.

 

[Nowy]

I feel exactly the same. Nothing really gives me pleasure anymore. Everything seems boring snd a waste of time. Only alcohol helps to numb me to it for a while.

 

[imsorry]

Have you tried going on a dopamine fast? Get off tech for a week, even if you're bored as fuck. After that your dopamine receptors will be healed a bit and you'll enjoy things a lot more.

I actually did try it, and nothing was interesting either. I mean, sure, some things were better than staring at the ceiling doing nothing, but they're not really interesting enough and I'd much rather lie in bed doing nothing and consuming media than do them. I want something interesting enough that I wouldn't consider just rotting in bed browsing the internet to be a preferable alternative, but nothing was interesting enough.

Kind of ironic, few days ago you said that you might have erectile disfunction and your penis isn't working properly "gee what should i do?" anon1822 told you to take a break from porn because it basically numbs your dopamine receptors. Now you are telling him to get off tech for a week to help with his dopamine receptors?

What the fuck

 

[Deleted member 7448]

I feel exactly the same. Nothing really gives me pleasure anymore. Everything seems boring snd a waste of time. Only alcohol helps to numb me to it for a while.

Damn, sorry to hear that. You should seriously consider stopping your drinking, I wrote many threads about how much I fucked my life with alcohol. For years before that I was depressed and I hated my life and being alive, but I didn't know how much worse alcohol would make my life, reaching rock bottoms I never thought possible. And even years after stopping, unfucking my life is not possible.

Kind of ironic, few days ago you said that you might have erectile disfunction and your penis isn't working properly "gee what should i do?" anon1822 told you to take a break from porn because it basically numbs your dopamine receptors. Now you are telling him to get off tech for a week to help with his dopamine receptors?

What the fuck

Haha, a dopamine detox is a good solution though. My brain just happens to be an unbelievable piece of shit and nothing works on it.

 

[Selinity]

Kind of ironic, few days ago you said that you might have erectile disfunction and your penis isn't working properly "gee what should i do?" anon1822 told you to take a break from porn because it basically numbs your dopamine receptors. Now you are telling him to get off tech for a week to help with his dopamine receptors?

What the fuck

lmaoooo

 

[Tenshi]

I feel exactly the same. Nothing really gives me pleasure anymore. Everything seems boring snd a waste of time.

 

[Nowy]

Damn, sorry to hear that. You should seriously consider stopping your drinking, I wrote many threads about how much I fucked my life with alcohol. For years before that I was depressed and I hated my life and being alive, but I didn't know how much worse alcohol would make my life, reaching rock bottoms I never thought possible. And even years after stopping, unfucking my life is not possible.

Yes, i agree. Alcohol just creates more problems. I'm incapable of stopping it's use unfortunately though. My life is too shit and boring to deny myself one of the few pleasures i have access to. I am trying to limit my use of it though. I don't drink everyday like i used to. On another note. Before i joined i browsed this forum for a while and you are by far the most relatable user here. Almost everything you write i have the exact same experiences. Tell me are you from a post communist country? Couse it would make a lot of sense to me if you are.

 

[imsorry]

lmaoooo

Yeah? Your posts are baits. Why would you offer the same advice from the person that you got advice few days ago about your erectile disfunction? R u retarded?

 

[Selinity]

Yeah? Your posts are baits. Why would you offer the same advice from the person that you got advice few days ago about your erectile disfunction? R u retarded?

I'm not retarded. I don't make bait posts or threads either. I offered the same advice bc it works.

 

[coldmachinery]

I spent years on a PC and acquired zero (0) skills. It's honestly impressive how little things come natural to me, I'm like an alien.

 

[Nowy]

Yes, i agree. Alcohol just creates more problems. I'm incapable of stopping it's use unfortunately though. My life is too shit and boring to deny myself one of the few pleasures i have access to. I am trying to limit my use of it though. I don't drink everyday like i used to. On another note. Before i joined i browsed this forum for a while and you are by far the most relatable user here. Almost everything you write i have the exact same experiences. Tell me are you from a post communist country? Couse it would make a lot of sense to me if you are.

 

[Irredeemable]

A lot of interesting things cost money, so you can’t do it too much.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

I spent years on a PC and acquired zero (0) skills. It's honestly impressive how little things come natural to me, I'm like an alien.

Yeah I have zero talents. Not even talents, just a moderate amount of affinity towards something - nope. Even in games that I played for years I still sucked hard and got nowhere.

A lot of interesting things cost money, so you can’t do it too much.

Yeah but even if I removed money from the equation, nothing really piques my interest.

 

[patheticmanletcel]

Life is boring as fuck

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Yes, i agree. Alcohol just creates more problems. I'm incapable of stopping it's use unfortunately though. My life is too shit and boring to deny myself one of the few pleasures i have access to. I am trying to limit my use of it though. I don't drink everyday like i used to. On another note. Before i joined i browsed this forum for a while and you are by far the most relatable user here. Almost everything you write i have the exact same experiences. Tell me are you from a post communist country? Couse it would make a lot of sense to me if you are.

Sorry to hear that, I know how hard it is to quit. Despite all the numerous devastating events that happened, I only really quit when my pancreas was beyond fucked. Physically couldn't drink anymore, was vomiting bile, literally heaving my bile out after one glass of wine towards the end of my alcoholism, that's how hard I had to fuck my health before I stopped.

 

[Deleted member 8884]

Your brain is fried from isolation OP. That's the blunt reality of it. You suffer from anhedonia because we are not meant to be alone 24/7 in front of a screen, and to undo this it would take months of being in constant contact with other people to "rewire" your brain.

Just refraining from tech use by itself is not even half the battle.

Just accept becoming schizoid tbh.

 

[shepherdcel]

I have interests and an entire life path... it just has zero meaning without someone to share it with. So even my goals and interests have turned rotten and don't function as viable copes anymore. It hurts to even pursue them knowing I'm destined to be alone.

Drugs stopped working, so I'm basically hanging on by a thread JFL. Deciding whether to continue subjecting myself to isolation or just end it and rope.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Your brain is fried from isolation OP. That's the blunt reality of it. You suffer from anhedonia because we are not meant to be alone 24/7 in front of a screen, and to undo this it would take months of being in constant contact with other people to "rewire" your brain.

Just refraining from tech use by itself is not even half the battle.

Just accept becoming schizoid tbh.

Damn, I'm too anxious, avoidant, maybe event PTSD (not really ptsd but almost because of the many cringe or humiliating memories that I constantly get flashbacks and am scared of even going outside or talking to people cause I'm scared I'd get seen by someone that used to know me), and a bunch of other shit to ever change now and be more sociable. I tried, it didn't work and I actually ended up much worse as a result of me trying, just added a bunch of other cringe and humiliating memories that haunt me.

Not to mention that I became so antisocial as a result of bad experiences so it would be next to impossible to change at this age.

So how do schizoids find things that they enjoy doing?

 

[Deleted member 8884]

Damn, I'm too anxious, avoidant, maybe event PTSD (not really ptsd but almost because of the many cringe or humiliating memories that I constantly get flashbacks and am scared of even going outside or talking to people cause I'm scared I'd get seen by someone that used to know me), and a bunch of other shit to ever change now and be more sociable. I tried, it didn't work and I actually ended up much worse as a result of me trying, just added a bunch of other cringe and humiliating memories that haunt me.

Not to mention that I became so antisocial as a result of bad experiences so it would be next to impossible to change at this age.

So how do schizoids find things that they enjoy doing?

You sound similar to me. I am also avoidant under the sub type "self-deserting" which is where you constantly either are daydreaming or having painful ruminations about events which you deem embarrassing.

Deep down, you are actually a schizoid. Most avoidants are just schizoids who have no positive experiences with people. First you need to let go of your desire to integrate socially with other people. You do this by almost coping or convincing yourself that other people aren't worth the effort. Find peace within yourself. You need to tell yourself there's nothing wrong with you and wanting to be alone.

The more you continue down the spiral of self-hatred, the deeper you go into those painful ruminations that you have. If you want to be rid of those, you have to use what self-awareness is present within you and tell yourself you did nothing wrong etc etc. Also, take up meditating.

Reminder that your ruminations are not as bad as you think they are.

If you suffer from maladaptive daydreaming then try your best to stop or limit it.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

You sound similar to me. I am also avoidant under the sub type "self-deserting" which is where you constantly either are daydreaming or having painful ruminations about events which you deem embarrassing.

Deep down, you are actually a schizoid. Most avoidants are just schizoids who have no positive experiences with people. First you need to let go of your desire to integrate socially with other people. You do this by almost coping or convincing yourself that other people aren't worth the effort. Find peace within yourself. You need to tell yourself there's nothing wrong with you and wanting to be alone.

The more you continue down the spiral of self-hatred, the deeper you go into those painful ruminations that you have. If you want to be rid of those, you have to use what self-awareness is present within you and tell yourself you did nothing wrong etc etc. Also, take up meditating.

Reminder that your ruminations are not as bad as you think they are.

If you suffer from maladaptive daydreaming then try your best to stop or limit it.

Thanks mate, good advice. Unfortunately most of my more painful ruminations are from the 2+ year period of alcoholism (it's been over for years but the damage I did can't be undone in an entire lifetime). Really did a number on my life back then, shit, can't even share the stories on this forum they're so cringe and humiliating some of them. And they're all caused by me, I was the moron and I actively did wrong.

 

[Deleted member 8884]

Thanks mate, good advice. Unfortunately most of my more painful ruminations are from the 2+ year period of alcoholism. Really did a number on my life back then, shit, can't even share the stories on this forum they're so cringe and humiliating some of them. And they're all caused by me, I was the moron and I actively did wrong.

You did what you could. There are people who have done worse. You had a different mindset and have learned from it.

Good luck lad.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

You did what you could. There are people who have done worse. You had a different mindset and have learned from it.

Good luck lad.

Thanks mate, hope you find some happiness as well.

 

[Cope_Time]

Killing time on PC is what gives me pleasure, everything else is a torture.

 

[Ellviss]

A lot of interesting things cost money, so you can’t do it too much.

 

[Deleted member 5712]

Nothing really gives me pleasure anymore. Everything seems boring

 

[latin_elioth]

Even as a kid I was like this. I rushed and skipped everything else just to watch TV or consume media by browsing sites or playing games. That's all I really did in life, didn't like doing anything else.

It got worse as a teen since I became depressed and anhedonic, but that's neither here nor there.

What I don't understand is why, despite trying so hard and so long to like things, to find just 1 interest, there's just nothing that piques my interest. Not one god damn thing. What kind of lemon brain do I have, shit's broken.

It's such a big world with so many things to do, it makes no sense, why am I like this?

My friend I know exactly how you feel. From my childhood I remember being exited about the latest videogame, the latest tv series, the latest movie, etc. I remember wanting things, a console, clothes, video games, trips everything.

But now everything seems gray, I don't expect anything, I want nothing I just want to lay down and died. Everything seems to be gray and tasteless.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

My friend I know exactly how you feel. From my childhood I remember being exited about the latest videogame, the latest tv series, the latest movie, etc. I remember wanting things, a console, clothes, video games, trips everything.

But now everything seems gray, I don't expect anything, I want nothing I just want to lay down and died. Everything seems to be gray and tasteless.

Sorry to hear that mate, hope we can eventually, one day, move past this and actually enjoy something in life, to find something fulfilling.