Venting I hate being broke out of the cope.

[Incelibate anarchist]

It is an awful feeling when reality catches up with you, I was coping hard the past few months with minimal issues. But a couple days ago I was sitting in my room alone,as usual, and the cope failed. I havent felt that bad in awhile. Im a Neet, a shut-in Neet most of the time. Reality seems far away sometimes, but it always comes creeping back eventually.

When it returns, I sometimes think Im lying to myself when I say I enjoy being a Neet who does next to nothing all day. I dont know if this is a good lifestyle, its adequate but I dont know if that matters in the end. Maybe its just mood swings or something else, Im not sure. I wish I could cope for years at a time, right now I cant cope for more than a month before short term depression kicks in.

 

[blickpall]

Totally understandable and relatable.

I used to cope hard with drugs alcohol vidya anime etc. But the problem is short term artificial happiness doesn't yield long term satisfaction and fulfillment. It's just how most of us are designed. I battled with the guilt of being unproductive and useless for a long time.

Being a wagecuck studycel is hell. But it's a hell I choose and I feel is on the "right" track as opposed to the cope-fueled quasiexistence I had, which was the "wrong" track and brings me more grief in retrospect than it gave me pleasure in the present.

 

[Incelibate anarchist]

Totally understandable and relatable.

I used to cope hard with drugs alcohol vidya anime etc. But the problem is short term artificial happiness doesn't yield long term satisfaction and fulfillment. It's just how most of us are designed. I battled with the guilt of being unproductive and useless for a long time.

Being a wagecuck studycel is hell. But it's a hell I choose and I feel is on the "right" track as opposed to the cope-fueled quasiexistence I had, which was the "wrong" track and brings me more grief in retrospect than it gave me pleasure in the present.

It really is a vicious cycle. Im begining to think that coping isnt the answer for me anymore.

 

[blickpall]

It really is a vicious cycle. Im begining to think that coping isnt the answer for me anymore.

This may seem like normie advice but follow your gut and try to make something of yourself. If you fail, worst case scenario you end up where you started.