Too scared to kill myself. I don't want to make my parents sad. I also want to live to get to play the sequels of my favorite games, watch the sequels of my favorite movies. That's all I have.
I also want to go to escorts. I keep saying this, but maybe I will go in 2-3 years. I plan to escortcel until I can't get an erection anymore. My entire fucking life I YEARNED for sex. Ever since hitting puberty I wanted to have sex with a woman.
I also refuse to FUCKING DIE VIRGIN. I will pay for escorts. I refuse to die virgin. I will not die virgin.