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I just wanna be loved, but don’t think I’m worthy
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I would just masturbate if I ever got horny. I wouldn’t care about sex if I didn’t care about connecting with another person.
But my intense hunger for love, intimacy, a person who cares about me is what kills me. When I say I’m sexually frustrated, I mean that I’m frustrated that I don’t get to have sex with a girl I like both physically and as a person.
I have never been interested in “drowning in pussy” or hookups. I wouldn’t decline an opportunity but I’ve always wanted a nice relationship more. But I’m not good enough for one. I don’t deserve one. No girl would be insane enough to want me. Even if I did get a relationship I don’t think she’d love me. I doubt love even exists.
I only care about my virginity because it’s an indicator that I’m undesirable. Even if no one found it pathetic for a guy to be in his 20s and beyond to still be a kissless virgin, even if there was no shame about it, I still wouldn’t feel much happier.
That’s what hurts about being incel, to me.
I feel so alone...
But my intense hunger for love, intimacy, a person who cares about me is what kills me. When I say I’m sexually frustrated, I mean that I’m frustrated that I don’t get to have sex with a girl I like both physically and as a person.
I have never been interested in “drowning in pussy” or hookups. I wouldn’t decline an opportunity but I’ve always wanted a nice relationship more. But I’m not good enough for one. I don’t deserve one. No girl would be insane enough to want me. Even if I did get a relationship I don’t think she’d love me. I doubt love even exists.
I only care about my virginity because it’s an indicator that I’m undesirable. Even if no one found it pathetic for a guy to be in his 20s and beyond to still be a kissless virgin, even if there was no shame about it, I still wouldn’t feel much happier.
That’s what hurts about being incel, to me.
I feel so alone...