My brain isn't working tbh. Same with my hands and most of the other body organs. I feel I've lost my conscience. I try to study but am not able to understand anything though I've already read and understood these things in the past. I want to go out but something scares me and I end up locking myself in the room asap. I cannot feel anything. It seems like everything has already ended and only thing I'm waiting for now is death. I hope it comes soon , but it seems like even the death enjoys to mock and bully me like everyone else in this world. How to feel anything ? I haven't been able to enjoy life ever , why? I don't know. This life and everything around is as meaningless as it can be. There's nothing in this world that belongs to me. Everything is others' property ... Everything.
