LDAR suicidal thoughts getting more and more.

[Swagpilled]

I recently caught covid and it showed me just how shit my life is. Going to the gym and eating goyslop is LITERALLY the only thing that kept me alive. I can't go an hour without crying, I'm unable to do anything. I have no friends, nobody to even talk to. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to watch movies, I don't want to watch shows, I don't want to watch youtube videos about games I don't want to play. Games aren't even a good cope because I suck at all of them and I'm too lonely to play singleplayer games. I just want some friends I can do something with. That want to do something with me, that care about me.
Just the realisation, after not being able to go to the gym, that there is literally NOTHING in my life is too awful. too heavy. I've never had and never will have fun, random experiences with friends. I'll never keep up to date on the newest hot trends with them. I'll never experience comradery at my local sports club after winning a match. I'll never have a friend point out my new haircut or new clothes at school. I'll never come home and just hop on cod with my friends. It's far too late now for any of that. I will never get my life "back".
When my covid is gone, nothing will change. I'll probably start going to the gym to stay alive again, but that's it. I won't come back to school and talk to my friends, my gf won't tell me how she missed me. I won't joke about what I missed with friends.
I'll just do the same as always, sitting in my room, on my computer refreshing youtube, twitter and being bored.
I genuinely can't take it anymore
If I stop posting here it's probably because I killed myself.

 

[Trojan2021]

I recently caught covid and it showed me just how shit my life is. Going to the gym and eating goyslop is LITERALLY the only thing that kept me alive. I can't go an hour without crying, I'm unable to do anything. I have no friends, nobody to even talk to. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to watch movies, I don't want to watch shows, I don't want to watch youtube videos about games I don't want to play. Games aren't even a good cope because I suck at all of them and I'm too lonely to play singleplayer games. I just want some friends I can do something with. That want to do something with me, that care about me.
Just the realisation, after not being able to go to the gym, that there is literally NOTHING in my life is too awful. too heavy. I've never had and never will have fun, random experiences with friends. I'll never keep up to date on the newest hot trends with them. I'll never experience comradery at my local sports club after winning a match. I'll never have a friend point out my new haircut or new clothes at school. I'll never come home and just hop on cod with my friends. It's far too late now for any of that. I will never get my life "back".
When my covid is gone, nothing will change. I'll probably start going to the gym to stay alive again, but that's it. I won't come back to school and talk to my friends, my gf won't tell me how she missed me. I won't joke about what I missed with friends.
I'll just do the same as always, sitting in my room, on my computer refreshing youtube, twitter and being bored.
I genuinely can't take it anymore
If I stop posting here it's probably because I killed myself.

this post was by a tallfag
chop your legs off and do everyone a favour

 

[TheGrayWolf]

this post was by a tallfag
chop your legs off and do everyone a favour

I recently caught covid and it showed me just how shit my life is. Going to the gym and eating goyslop is LITERALLY the only thing that kept me alive. I can't go an hour without crying, I'm unable to do anything. I have no friends, nobody to even talk to. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to watch movies, I don't want to watch shows, I don't want to watch youtube videos about games I don't want to play. Games aren't even a good cope because I suck at all of them and I'm too lonely to play singleplayer games. I just want some friends I can do something with. That want to do something with me, that care about me.
Just the realisation, after not being able to go to the gym, that there is literally NOTHING in my life is too awful. too heavy. I've never had and never will have fun, random experiences with friends. I'll never keep up to date on the newest hot trends with them. I'll never experience comradery at my local sports club after winning a match. I'll never have a friend point out my new haircut or new clothes at school. I'll never come home and just hop on cod with my friends. It's far too late now for any of that. I will never get my life "back".
When my covid is gone, nothing will change. I'll probably start going to the gym to stay alive again, but that's it. I won't come back to school and talk to my friends, my gf won't tell me how she missed me. I won't joke about what I missed with friends.
I'll just do the same as always, sitting in my room, on my computer refreshing youtube, twitter and being bored.
I genuinely can't take it anymore
If I stop posting here it's probably because I killed myself.

I'm 5'4/1.62m short, and much worse, very ugly. I went to the gym once, everyone made fun of me behind my back
I'm 26, a KHHV. Sex escorts are legal here, but I don't want one. I'll never get love from a foid.

 

[VitaminS]

this post was by a tallfag
chop your legs off and do everyone a favour

Stfu GrAY

 

[overrrrrrrrrrr]

Brutal I am sorry your life had to be like this, I understand what its like I feel exactly the same way, cant even remember the last time I experienced joy. I hope things will get better for u but lets be real they probably wont.

 

[VitaminS]

I recently caught covid and it showed me just how shit my life is. Going to the gym and eating goyslop is LITERALLY the only thing that kept me alive. I can't go an hour without crying, I'm unable to do anything. I have no friends, nobody to even talk to. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to watch movies, I don't want to watch shows, I don't want to watch youtube videos about games I don't want to play. Games aren't even a good cope because I suck at all of them and I'm too lonely to play singleplayer games. I just want some friends I can do something with. That want to do something with me, that care about me.
Just the realisation, after not being able to go to the gym, that there is literally NOTHING in my life is too awful. too heavy. I've never had and never will have fun, random experiences with friends. I'll never keep up to date on the newest hot trends with them. I'll never experience comradery at my local sports club after winning a match. I'll never have a friend point out my new haircut or new clothes at school. I'll never come home and just hop on cod with my friends. It's far too late now for any of that. I will never get my life "back".
When my covid is gone, nothing will change. I'll probably start going to the gym to stay alive again, but that's it. I won't come back to school and talk to my friends, my gf won't tell me how she missed me. I won't joke about what I missed with friends.
I'll just do the same as always, sitting in my room, on my computer refreshing youtube, twitter and being bored.
I genuinely can't take it anymore
If I stop posting here it's probably because I killed myself.

Don't kys. Terrible idea.

I have moments like this too, the gym is also all I have. I get stuck in these dark pits from time to time when I can't get out of bed in the morning and just want to kms all day long. I'm always able to get myself back up and recoup tho... here's how: never give up, just getting your ass of the couch or out of bed helps so much. Go on a walk or run, spend time outside, any form of physical activity really helps, especially getting sunlight. Idk how old you are, but get bloodwork, you could be deficient in some vitamin or mineral or have low T, I would consider doing TRT, makes you feel really good. Eat healthy, supplement, rest well, etc.

 

[Govid_Dorious]