Almost got with an egirl from another part of the US a while back, but fell apart after she called a wellness check on my family's house and I later reneged on getting into a long distance relationship with her, I pussied out if anything. After that, we didn't talk much at all afterwards, periodically checking in on each other.
Last month, I decided to talk to her again, with the intent of possibly getting into a relationship for real this time. Huge mistake. While we did talk a lot that day, she told me about how many exes she had had since she turned 18, she was about 19 and a half when we were talking. After asking me how many times I had sex, to which I obviously had to shamefully answer 0, she told me she had sex
14 times since turning 18, over the course of a year and a half, mostly through Tinder. She kept a list. She showed it to me. She also mentioned how many times she had taken men's virginities, and self-deprecatingly called herself a whore. Her sexual partners included a 28-year-old Chinese-Canadian with a PhD in biochemistry from
MIT and a man with an 8.5 inch (21.6 cm for the non-Yankees) penis - which she noted was the largest she had ever taken.
The thing is, she isn't even that attractive, conventionally speaking. Kind of like a skinny, nerdy Shelly Duvall (from The Shining, of course). But she's white and Greek or something, we didn't talk much about her ethnicity at all. I told her about how hopeless I felt with regards to my sexual and romantic prospects, to which she responded with the classic cope lines:
- "There's someone for everyone"
- "Women don't actually like super tall and muscular guys with massive dicks"
- "Women actually don't prefer huge dicks, they're painful."
- "Women will date short(er) men, dating super tall guys makes cuddling and walking together harder"
- "Just be confident, just be yourself, and someone will come along
I genuinely believe that women are entirely incapable of understanding how much easier they have it in the dating and sexual world, that they can just get away with lying about the colossal body counts that they can amass with the fraction of the effort that men, especially like us, have to undergo. Even mentioned how the PhD identified as an incel, supposedly. Also tried to say that she understood that she, as a white woman, naturally had it way easier than ethnic men in the dating scene, but I don't believe she, or any woman for that matter, could ever genuinely grasp how much easier they have it in the dating world. It really is an entirely different reality. That incident is what led me here, it's what really helped solidify my identity as an incel, an identity I flirted with a little during high school.
