SeasonofTreason
Greycel
★
- Joined
- Jul 26, 2022
- Posts
- 6
Hi, this is my first post here. I'm a 24 year old incel from Eastern Europe, Romania, and I think this could be because of some kind of strange cultural separation from my part due to not being able to socialize enough from a young age and spending too much time on the internet, besides the other obvious reasons like being short (only 5'6,5"), going bald early and having an average face.
Throughout nearly all of my school life, I was pretty much excluded from all social groups, and especially by girls and could barely talk to anyone because nobody would accept me, most likely due to being short, very timid and very weird, there's also a strong possibility I could have ADD and/or autism, my parents never wanted to get a doctor to diagnose me because it's an extremely taboo topic in my culture, and my parents simply didn't want to accept their son has a mental illness.
Unlike 99.9% of kids at that time in my area who were outside playing and socializing and what not, I was sitting there in front of the tv or pc watching american cartoons, blockbusters or anime or playing video games, because my parents somehow decided it was a good idea to let me spend time with these. Even if those things were fairly accessible in the mid 2000s, those were most definitely not popular mediums not even for kids and as a result I was the only weirdo around who even knew what a video game was. I learned english quickly from these and my mannerisms and way of speaking became influenced by those mediums which furthered the social exclusion from all the other kids. In a messed up way, consuming western/japanese media was my only "substitute" for socializing.
I started drawing a lot back then and I was mostly drawing what I saw in movies, games or cartoons/anime, and even though I like to say I'm quite good at drawing and some art teachers even appreciated me, most people here (and this applies especially to foids) can't really comprehend a drawing of say, some Yu-Gi-Oh character and other things like that, simply because they have no reference whatsoever for this, they never heard of those things, don't know what they are, and can't relate to them in any way, doesn't matter if it's "good" or not, therefore it's just weird for them.
A similar thing happened when I started playing guitar. I was randomly watching youtube and came across DBZ or Naruto AMVs with nu-metal music (Linkin Park and the likes) in the background and 14 year old me was easily impressed by that shit, so I wanted to play that on guitar. I also decided to try and become popular with girls when I noticed chadlites were attracting girls with playing music, but I didn't realize that it was only because of: a) they are handsome and playing an instrument is just a bonus, and b) they were playing romanian pop songs and not crappy american nu-metal or cartoon theme songs. Again, girls just can't relate to that stuff, even if I'm "good" at playing guitar.
With all that said art or music aren't profitable activities here anyway not even from a social standpoint unless you're a Chad, frankly, I would say football (soccer) is the most popular activity here that'll get you laid quickly, but I'm just retarded at any sport. My culture breeds strong police officers, athletes, engineers and high status people into law or medicine, not short autistic wimps like me who draw cartoons and play guitar, doesn't matter if I'm actually talented or not. I've always sucked shit at math so getting into a STEM career is out of the question, at least that way I would've had enough money to be a betabux.
Now that I'm 24, every girl is already taken and some even get married, not that I'd have a chance anyway. Over here it's extremely important to be with the world and to be socially experienced and date a lot starting as young as 12 or 13, very few people are incels, it's something unheard of here, being inexperienced at this age is already a death sentence. Most likely if I was actually attractive, things would've been a lot easier.
Your thoughts on this?
Throughout nearly all of my school life, I was pretty much excluded from all social groups, and especially by girls and could barely talk to anyone because nobody would accept me, most likely due to being short, very timid and very weird, there's also a strong possibility I could have ADD and/or autism, my parents never wanted to get a doctor to diagnose me because it's an extremely taboo topic in my culture, and my parents simply didn't want to accept their son has a mental illness.
Unlike 99.9% of kids at that time in my area who were outside playing and socializing and what not, I was sitting there in front of the tv or pc watching american cartoons, blockbusters or anime or playing video games, because my parents somehow decided it was a good idea to let me spend time with these. Even if those things were fairly accessible in the mid 2000s, those were most definitely not popular mediums not even for kids and as a result I was the only weirdo around who even knew what a video game was. I learned english quickly from these and my mannerisms and way of speaking became influenced by those mediums which furthered the social exclusion from all the other kids. In a messed up way, consuming western/japanese media was my only "substitute" for socializing.
I started drawing a lot back then and I was mostly drawing what I saw in movies, games or cartoons/anime, and even though I like to say I'm quite good at drawing and some art teachers even appreciated me, most people here (and this applies especially to foids) can't really comprehend a drawing of say, some Yu-Gi-Oh character and other things like that, simply because they have no reference whatsoever for this, they never heard of those things, don't know what they are, and can't relate to them in any way, doesn't matter if it's "good" or not, therefore it's just weird for them.
A similar thing happened when I started playing guitar. I was randomly watching youtube and came across DBZ or Naruto AMVs with nu-metal music (Linkin Park and the likes) in the background and 14 year old me was easily impressed by that shit, so I wanted to play that on guitar. I also decided to try and become popular with girls when I noticed chadlites were attracting girls with playing music, but I didn't realize that it was only because of: a) they are handsome and playing an instrument is just a bonus, and b) they were playing romanian pop songs and not crappy american nu-metal or cartoon theme songs. Again, girls just can't relate to that stuff, even if I'm "good" at playing guitar.
With all that said art or music aren't profitable activities here anyway not even from a social standpoint unless you're a Chad, frankly, I would say football (soccer) is the most popular activity here that'll get you laid quickly, but I'm just retarded at any sport. My culture breeds strong police officers, athletes, engineers and high status people into law or medicine, not short autistic wimps like me who draw cartoons and play guitar, doesn't matter if I'm actually talented or not. I've always sucked shit at math so getting into a STEM career is out of the question, at least that way I would've had enough money to be a betabux.
Now that I'm 24, every girl is already taken and some even get married, not that I'd have a chance anyway. Over here it's extremely important to be with the world and to be socially experienced and date a lot starting as young as 12 or 13, very few people are incels, it's something unheard of here, being inexperienced at this age is already a death sentence. Most likely if I was actually attractive, things would've been a lot easier.
Your thoughts on this?