I just wanted to come back to to explain my absence and reflect on my time here. I don’t know how long I’ve been inactive but it’s certainly been less than a month. During this time I hadn’t totally left the forum as I would come here occasionally and lurk, my time spent here has been drastically reduced since then.
I didn’t leave in order to “improve my life” or anything like that. In fact I’ve been feeling much more miserable and unstable than usual. However, I feel as if I’ve lost touch with this place. During my time here I’ve called out many members and have complained endlessly about fakecels, volcels, edgy teens, failed normies, /pol/tards etc. I was never under the impression that this place was 100% legit and over time I’ve learned to live with that. Even so, the forum is definitely not what it used to be and along with everything in my life seems to be degrading in the worst of ways over time.
On the subject of my life as of late, I’ve been feeling the gravity of my situation much more strongly with this past weekend only aggravating matters. I feel as if I’ve passed through the bargaining phase of my life. I tried lookmaxxig, personalitymaxxing, and made a failed attempt at moneymaxxing. After taking the blackpill and realizing how futile my past efforts were I gave up and attempted to simply waste away as a NEET and yet I was denied even this path. I’ve grown tired of trying to steer away from the inevitable. For all my talk I still wish for something of a re-roll so to speak, simply being normal would be good enough for me. The pain from the loss of what could’ve been along with constant attacks from my fellow man will not leave me nor will all the the unpleasant memories that continue to haunt me.
I am constantly abused and yet forbidden to hide and so I’m left with few options. Taking things to their logical conclusion death is the only way out. I’ve been putting this off for awhile now but it’s time I get on with the final chapter of my short life. While I’m not making my preparations I’ll be drowning myself in various copes. The process won’t be instantaneous so I’ll need to keep it together for as long as possible. I won’t be here to often but I’ll log in periodically to check and see if anyone left me a message. Other than that I simply won’t have the time to engage with the forum so I guess this is somewhat of a farewell. In spite of everything, this place has allowed me to take control of my life in a way that I never would’ve done without the knowledge and wisdom that a few members here have provided. I’ve enjoyed interacting with many of the users here be it through various threads, streams or private conversations. I wish most of you the best whatever that may be for you as an individual and I hope that I will escape this intolerable state of existence soon
I didn’t leave in order to “improve my life” or anything like that. In fact I’ve been feeling much more miserable and unstable than usual. However, I feel as if I’ve lost touch with this place. During my time here I’ve called out many members and have complained endlessly about fakecels, volcels, edgy teens, failed normies, /pol/tards etc. I was never under the impression that this place was 100% legit and over time I’ve learned to live with that. Even so, the forum is definitely not what it used to be and along with everything in my life seems to be degrading in the worst of ways over time.
On the subject of my life as of late, I’ve been feeling the gravity of my situation much more strongly with this past weekend only aggravating matters. I feel as if I’ve passed through the bargaining phase of my life. I tried lookmaxxig, personalitymaxxing, and made a failed attempt at moneymaxxing. After taking the blackpill and realizing how futile my past efforts were I gave up and attempted to simply waste away as a NEET and yet I was denied even this path. I’ve grown tired of trying to steer away from the inevitable. For all my talk I still wish for something of a re-roll so to speak, simply being normal would be good enough for me. The pain from the loss of what could’ve been along with constant attacks from my fellow man will not leave me nor will all the the unpleasant memories that continue to haunt me.
I am constantly abused and yet forbidden to hide and so I’m left with few options. Taking things to their logical conclusion death is the only way out. I’ve been putting this off for awhile now but it’s time I get on with the final chapter of my short life. While I’m not making my preparations I’ll be drowning myself in various copes. The process won’t be instantaneous so I’ll need to keep it together for as long as possible. I won’t be here to often but I’ll log in periodically to check and see if anyone left me a message. Other than that I simply won’t have the time to engage with the forum so I guess this is somewhat of a farewell. In spite of everything, this place has allowed me to take control of my life in a way that I never would’ve done without the knowledge and wisdom that a few members here have provided. I’ve enjoyed interacting with many of the users here be it through various threads, streams or private conversations. I wish most of you the best whatever that may be for you as an individual and I hope that I will escape this intolerable state of existence soon
