All my weekends since i have a memory I've spent it alone in my room in my computer.
Sometimes I went out for a walk at night and saw young guys like me only they were dressed to kill, always excited, with a six pack of beer or leaving a convenience store with packs of cigarettes and liquor, sometimes I saw girls get in a taxi or hurrying up inside the car of one of their friends, etc.
Sometimes during these night walks I saw groups of friends laughing and having fun, they were all going to parties or clubs. I wasn't.
Now that I'm almost 30 I still see them and it feels strange. Like something I've completely missed but this time is different, they dress differently and now they vape and seem to have quirky personalities although they are just as immature and dumb
My weekends have been characterized by me being completely alone and with no one to talk, just like the rest of the days of the week.
I spent it consuming media, movies, anime, youtube videos, etc., there was nothing I could really do. I always had a problem with my self-image and didn't feel safe arond others. Despite this, it was maddening being alone so much so I went out for night walks to calm myself. I walked for 3 hours, sometimes 4 or 5.
It helped me but sometimes it didn't.
So if you're under 25 you should try make friends be it in college or school or at your job. Then it will only get worse and almost impossible to have friends. You will have a real hard time as well because you can't connect with people when you've never really interacted that much and don't have a point of reference, you never had that social life and they will know it, unless you make up stories, which are always hard to keep.
Sometimes I went out for a walk at night and saw young guys like me only they were dressed to kill, always excited, with a six pack of beer or leaving a convenience store with packs of cigarettes and liquor, sometimes I saw girls get in a taxi or hurrying up inside the car of one of their friends, etc.
Sometimes during these night walks I saw groups of friends laughing and having fun, they were all going to parties or clubs. I wasn't.
Now that I'm almost 30 I still see them and it feels strange. Like something I've completely missed but this time is different, they dress differently and now they vape and seem to have quirky personalities although they are just as immature and dumb
My weekends have been characterized by me being completely alone and with no one to talk, just like the rest of the days of the week.
I spent it consuming media, movies, anime, youtube videos, etc., there was nothing I could really do. I always had a problem with my self-image and didn't feel safe arond others. Despite this, it was maddening being alone so much so I went out for night walks to calm myself. I walked for 3 hours, sometimes 4 or 5.
It helped me but sometimes it didn't.
So if you're under 25 you should try make friends be it in college or school or at your job. Then it will only get worse and almost impossible to have friends. You will have a real hard time as well because you can't connect with people when you've never really interacted that much and don't have a point of reference, you never had that social life and they will know it, unless you make up stories, which are always hard to keep.
