Anyone else feel like they aren't really alive?

[Deleted member 9758]

I'm not talking about rotmaxxing. I mean that I feel like i'm not really alive at all. All my emotions are so dull except for anxiety, guilt and fear. Even after a productive day when i'm lying in bed, it's like the day never actually happened. It's almost like i'm watching myself from above as an entirely different being. It's a bit scary.

 

[RobTenekin]

I'm not talking about rotmaxxing. I mean that I feel like i'm not really alive at all. All my emotions are so dull except for anxiety, guilt and fear. Even after a productive day when i'm lying in bed, it's like the day never actually happened. It's almost like i'm watching myself from above as an entirely different being. It's a bit scary.

Pretty sure that’s called dissociating and I do that too

 

[racoon4]

I never feel like I am alive until I think about it. Most likely bc my life is shit so living in the moment would be awful

 

[calimero]

i have been obsessing over my separation with my oneitus for 4.5 years now and i still think about her every day. I can't seem to put her out of my heart and also don't want to and so I feel like I don't really exist. I'm basically just waiting for the world to end and living in the past, obsessing over past female classmates that i considered friends

 

[Deleted member 40252]

I'm sure it's all a shitty simulation

 

[Transcended Trucel]

yes Jews took my life and replaces me with an NPC

 

[Deleted member 43365]

All my positive emotions are gone. I only feel shame, and sometimes inferiority when I'm heavily mogged by a Chad or Tyrone. Thankfully no more anxiety for the most part except when I have to engage in conversation with a non blood related foid.

 

[Vitarius]

i have been obsessing over my separation with my oneitus for 4.5 years now and i still think about her every day. I can't seem to put her out of my heart and also don't want to and so I feel like I don't really exist. I'm basically just waiting for the world to end and living in the past, obsessing over past female classmates that i considered friends

I don't see my oneitis since November 2021, but I still think about her

But I think my obsession with her is gradually going away, so lifefuel

 

[calimero]

I don't see my oneitis since November 2021, but I still think about her

But I think my obsession with her is gradually going away, so lifefuel

My mother says that "people come and go" but that is not true in my experience. I live in the past and think about girls from then, but my energy is completely gone. Everyone seems to go their own way and live a stale life. Im sure there is an expiration date for everyone. Most people that live materialistic egoistic lives for too long just become demons imo

 

[ScandinaviaCel]

dissociation, derealization and depersonalization

 

[Indari]

it's over for schizocels

 

[UnendingRuin]

Normal feeling for me tbh.

 

[proudweeb]

damn I feel the same way bro my only emotion is anger

 

[depressedblackcel]

yes

 

[NorthernWind]

Dissociation

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Not rn but they were moments when I randomly told myself "shit am i alive or am i dead?"

 

[Rainallday]

No I don't think about it

 

[Kabsacel]

I'm not talking about rotmaxxing. I mean that I feel like i'm not really alive at all. All my emotions are so dull except for anxiety, guilt and fear. Even after a productive day when i'm lying in bed, it's like the day never actually happened. It's almost like i'm watching myself from above as an entirely different being. It's a bit scary.

Yes,I have been feeling this way for a long time,later found out there is a name for it-dissociation

 

[Kabsacel]

I feel like I dont exist,in a literal sense

 

[IncelHeII]

I feel like a robot thats only purpose is to wagie and repeat