Deleted member 8353
Former Hikikomori, Aimless Pleasure Seeker
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I want to stop believing that I'm a virgin, but this is a difficult thing to achieve. It's not the idea of sex with some random foid that I care so much about, I can satisfy those urges through fapping. However I need to know what sex feels like to recreate it within my head, and I can't simply fabricate a memory of an experience which I've never had. Or maybe I can? I'm uncertain.
Escortcelling isn't really a solution for me, as it's risky, expensive, and I can't afford it right now anyway.
I've had sexual dreams that were quite pleasurable in the past, and one in which I remember what it felt like. Perhaps I can alter my memory of that dream to suit my needs, but it's very abstract. Although I suppose that if that's how I've experienced "sex", then there is nothing saying that the sensations of that dream weren't a genuine sexual experience. Maybe that's the solution tbh, and that I'm a virgin only if I choose to believe that's the case.
Escortcelling isn't really a solution for me, as it's risky, expensive, and I can't afford it right now anyway.
I've had sexual dreams that were quite pleasurable in the past, and one in which I remember what it felt like. Perhaps I can alter my memory of that dream to suit my needs, but it's very abstract. Although I suppose that if that's how I've experienced "sex", then there is nothing saying that the sensations of that dream weren't a genuine sexual experience. Maybe that's the solution tbh, and that I'm a virgin only if I choose to believe that's the case.