EmptyVoice
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Hello everyone, hope you had a good day... This is my first post and english is not my first language, so I hope I can convey my message to all of you.
First of all, this topic concerns people who, starting from 18, (in my country this is the age of majority, so let it be start point), and the next about 10 years have not had any interactions with the opposite sex.
I would like us to reflect on such a topic as "Are we still capable to feel or give love?"
You can all ask "What are you talking about, of course we are capable, but no one loves us?"
So everything below is mostly my personal experience, and I would like to know if anyone else shares this feeling. The feeling that you can't love anymore.
My first attack of existential terror about relationships and love I experienced at 15. At this age, for the first time, with all my skin, I felt an animal fear from the thought that no one would love me ... And afterward, from day to day, from year to year, this nightmare thought slowly but surely turned into my reality...
Many years have passed since that moment, a lot of things happened to me, one thing always remained invariably - fear and anger.
Fear that nothing will change and anger that you do not even understand how to fix it. And also horror at the thought that these feelings will eventually share the grave with you...
[UWSL]At one of the moments of such reflections my head was struck by another thought, not even a thought, but a conclusion, as if I had found an answer to a problem that I had not been able to solve for years... "I no longer feel that I want love"... I mean, even if a beautiful girl miraculously appeared in front of me and said that she loves me, I would have felt nothing but suspicion, suspicion and fear that this is some kind of cruel joke.[/UWSL]
I lived for so long with all these negative feelings that they burned out in me even the smallest pieces of hope. Of hope that someone is still able to show warmth to me.
And now we come to the main part of this post, to the thought to which I led, namely, "Can it be so that fear, anger, despair, all those feelings that the Incels feel every day, burn out in us not only self-esteem, but and the ability to feel what we want with all our hearts - love? "
Well, that's all, thank you.
Hope this text was more or less readable)
First of all, this topic concerns people who, starting from 18, (in my country this is the age of majority, so let it be start point), and the next about 10 years have not had any interactions with the opposite sex.
I would like us to reflect on such a topic as "Are we still capable to feel or give love?"
You can all ask "What are you talking about, of course we are capable, but no one loves us?"
So everything below is mostly my personal experience, and I would like to know if anyone else shares this feeling. The feeling that you can't love anymore.
My first attack of existential terror about relationships and love I experienced at 15. At this age, for the first time, with all my skin, I felt an animal fear from the thought that no one would love me ... And afterward, from day to day, from year to year, this nightmare thought slowly but surely turned into my reality...
Many years have passed since that moment, a lot of things happened to me, one thing always remained invariably - fear and anger.
Fear that nothing will change and anger that you do not even understand how to fix it. And also horror at the thought that these feelings will eventually share the grave with you...
[UWSL]At one of the moments of such reflections my head was struck by another thought, not even a thought, but a conclusion, as if I had found an answer to a problem that I had not been able to solve for years... "I no longer feel that I want love"... I mean, even if a beautiful girl miraculously appeared in front of me and said that she loves me, I would have felt nothing but suspicion, suspicion and fear that this is some kind of cruel joke.[/UWSL]
I lived for so long with all these negative feelings that they burned out in me even the smallest pieces of hope. Of hope that someone is still able to show warmth to me.
And now we come to the main part of this post, to the thought to which I led, namely, "Can it be so that fear, anger, despair, all those feelings that the Incels feel every day, burn out in us not only self-esteem, but and the ability to feel what we want with all our hearts - love? "
Well, that's all, thank you.
Hope this text was more or less readable)