I wasn't really talking about war, only your comment about this world not being a place for us. Actually I'm so impulsive that if I had a gun in my house, I'm certain that I would've killed myself by now. As I often feel extremely suicidal for a few hours at a time, but then it passes and goes back to my normal level of feeling like shit.
I'm scared of the failure from not being able to kill yourself with a gun if the time comes when there is no longer surviving family around me and I am past middle age. I also worry about the consequences of instinctively quitting this life before my time is determined and how it is rumored to have potential severe consequences if there is an afterlife or reincarnation.
Ultimately you're right though, dying for this society is about as cucked as it gets.
I long struggled with the idea that maybe remaking the world into a better place might alleviate and make things easier for low status males but after seeing how the spread of the redpill backfired and was co-opted by PUAs and how later a lot of former men's rights activists and mgtow who were virgins became extremely disillusioned with the state of things after being mocked and dismissed no matter how well they framed their arguments and gave evidence and found themselves going to incel forums to rot, I am convinced that there is nothing really that can be done and that the world will never be a place for sexless males that cannot naturally attract a woman.
Ironically enough I had starting to think about this in 2013 after watching the final episode of Scooby Doo Mystery Incorporated where it was said that all the influence of the evil entity in Crystal Cove never had to happen and things were finally as they should be.
That's when I realized that all the talk the media says about how you should get out there, speak your mind, influence others: that influence in itself may be an evil.
Politicians that seek to gain influence over people's lives often do it for narcissistic grandiose ends to attach their name to it.
Forcing reclusive males to share their opinions and not hide from society sometimes has bad consequences like your rhetoric later being co-opted by dissident sexhavers and people that want to draw attention to controversial things you say to feature in their book. You are in effect being used again by not holding back what you really think and it's very demoralizing.
People have to figure out their life for themselves but it worked better when there was a life script. I can't be the one to tell people how to live their lives because there is still much to figure out and it's different for everyone. Plus giving people information with everything not yet accounted for can have bad consequences down the line. I used to assume I knew what everyone should do but I realized I am not really in that position so I refrained from doing so.
I tried to leave all these sites behind after 2013 but through the rise of the alt-right again bringing manosphere topics to light and failure to NTmaxx and fit in with normies because of being ethnic, I was drawn back to these places again perhaps by fate.
It was then that I also concluded after reading discussions on this site showing how it was already over for low tier males 100 years ago that this world was never made for sexless males and part of the reason why sexless males can never integrate into society and live a normal life is because of this reason.
But now despite concluding influence is evil I persist in venting here in a way that might influence people that read what I type. Why? Because I'm not doing it to change things but in hopes that I can share insight to prevent them from getting worse.
The fact that it has been revealed just how desperate people are to shut up males that vent in their own spaces about being mistreated by women and society is something that really irritates me and I feel that ceding to this is giving up the will to live in any manner.
Remember that talk of the military draft and WW3 was very real at the beginning of this year and musing about sending men to war was becoming more common. No one should ever here should ever cede to this narrative.
Society is counting on people here feeling so depressed and demoralized from having all their copes and ability to vent taken away from them that they volunteer themselves/allow themselves to be thrust into the meat grinder of war against probably other sexless males from other countries and to come to acceptance with the expendability of non chad males and just shut up and accept it. It is an insidious arrogant move for society to do this.
By comparison to all this I am fine eking out an existence and hoping things don't get worse and sharing insights that better help prepare people like me for what might be coming.
Again I don't want to play into the narrative that it is so hopeless that there is no point in doing anything because that just leaves you open to be used by society.
