Venting How do you guys keep yourselves from roping?

[La Grande Infamie]

I see no real reason to keep going. My parents only seem to love me enough so that I feel bad and apologize to them after fights, regardless of whether I’m right or not. Whatever they want, they get out of me, because they’ll go to any extent to get what they want. Not only that, but having to cope with being mixed-race, knowing that the purpose of your creation was the destruction of the white race and that there’s little to nothing you can do about it is draining on the mind. The cherry on the shit milkshake is that I’m still fucking incel. My only friends are on websites like this, because normies and women see my existence as a cheap joke, and they often just say whatever they like right to my face. It’s as if I’m only cared about so long as I can entertain or be useful to someone. Lots of people here have been at this longer than me, how are you all keeping it together?

 

[Fancy Alcoholic]

I still enjoy existing somehow. Not existing seems nightmarish. I'm not readu to lose everything forever ever.

 

[Natey Nate]

fear of death

 

[Acorn]

Still young and need to take care of my parents

 

[Linky Love]

Only fear of Hell and my mother needing me keeps me from self terminating.

Otherwise I would’ve been gone many years ago by my own hands.

 

[LeFrenchCel]

My copes still work for now

 

[despisedpaul]

because then my autistic little brother would rope too

 

[Fancy Alcoholic]

Still young and need to take care of my parents

My parents don't need me but my death would certainly destroy their own life and hopes regarding their son.

 

[Raider919]

i fantasize about raping femoids and shooting up normies

 

[Fancy Alcoholic]

My copes still work for now

Relying on copes and only copes is a fragile reason to keep going.

 

[Chudpreet]

I still have a bucket list of things to do before considering roping

 

[La Grande Infamie]

I still have a bucket list of things to do before considering roping

Care to share?

 

[Sheldor]

I see no real reason to keep going. My parents only seem to love me enough so that I feel bad and apologize to them after fights, regardless of whether I’m right or not. Whatever they want, they get out of me, because they’ll go to any extent to get what they want. Not only that, but having to cope with being mixed-race, knowing that the purpose of your creation was the destruction of the white race and that there’s little to nothing you can do about it is draining on the mind. The cherry on the shit milkshake is that I’m still fucking incel. My only friends are on websites like this, because normies and women see my existence as a cheap joke, and they often just say whatever they like right to my face. It’s as if I’m only cared about so long as I can entertain or be useful to someone. Lots of people here have been at this longer than me, how are you all keeping it together?

I study torah
du nazi hure

 

[cheapling]

Honestly I really want to rope. Thinking about doing it for my twenty fifth birthday. I feel better with all of the psyc meds and now that I have a CPAP machine; but still I hate living at a residential facility and there's no way up it seems. Suicide seems better than anything. BTW my birthday is this month.

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Relying on copes and only copes is a fragile reason to keep going.

I know but I have nothing else

 

[Acorn]

My parents don't need me but my death would certainly destroy their own life and hopes regarding their son.

I dont want to get rid of my pain by passing it onto my parents

 

[Fancy Alcoholic]

I know but I have nothing else

We live in a mercantile nihilistic world where what we call purpose and long term projects are glorified copes. So in the end, only the most illusory copes are the most powerful to live for.

 

[DarkStarDown]

Gaming
Fapping
Drugs
Music
reading/writing
Shows/movies
Sleep
Some sliver of hope

 

[sinclair_silence]

Fear of afterlife. Hellfire drilled into my mind from a young age while I should have been watching nice anime shows. I definitely would have killed myself by now if not for fear of waking up in an eternal blazing inferno.

 

[K1ng N0th1ng]

Nothing. I’m just waiting for something/someone to kill me as I can’t seem to do it myself.

 

[LeFrenchCel]

We live in a mercantile nihilistic world where what we call purpose and long term projects are glorified copes. So in the end, only the most illusory copes are the most powerful to live for.

High IQ post

 

[Fancy Alcoholic]

High IQ post

C'est fini.

 

[Based Network]

I don’t know.

 

[leafblown]

alcohol

 

[manletcel1488]

Pure hatred and spite.
The audacity of sub5s to even exist is enough to make some people especially foids seethe.

alcohol

Also this.

 

[La Grande Infamie]

Pure hatred and spite.
The audacity of sub5s to even exist is enough to make some people especially foids seethe.

Also this.

That’s what I’ve been surviving off of lately. Even that’s ran out. Should probably read more Siege. Actually go on that carnivore diet I’ve been pondering, get in the best shape of my life purely so I can toss non-white immigrants over the border

 

[Chudpreet]

Care to share?

It literally just consists of various unfulfilled desires and goals from my child & pre-teenhood. My train of thought is that if I were to end my life, I'd want to leave no stone unturned and feel something akin to closure. The one upside to being incels is that we don't have to invest much time into maintaining social connections like normies do, so we have more free time than normies in similar situations to ourselves.

Was there a dream job you had as a kid? If you've got enough free time and nothing better to do, you can explore that topic or field of study. I think @wereq does 3D art as a hobby, in my case, I think I'll try and immerse myself in paleontology soon.

Is there a fear/phobia you never got over? Confronting and conquering that could be a good way to feel a sense of fulfilment that consooming media can't give you.

There are many more activities to direct your interests towards; if you're looking to make a bucket list of your own and need something to kick-start the self-reflection/recollection process, I'd suggest visiting nostalgic places or looking through artifacts of your past.

 

[Chudpreet]

Should probably read more Siege. Actually go on that carnivore diet I’ve been pondering, get in the best shape of my life purely so I can toss non-white immigrants over the border

Working towards WN goals and the struggle against the Judaic system is also a reason to keep living

 

[Gokubro]

I actually had a good time last 3-4 years. I was basically asexual, just jerking off and not having any interest IRL foids.... But then I saw a very pretty foid at work and... It's fucking OVER.

 

[La Grande Infamie]

It literally just consists of various unfulfilled desires and goals from my child & pre-teenhood. My train of thought is that if I were to end my life, I'd want to leave no stone unturned and feel something akin to closure. The one upside to being incels is that we don't have to invest much time into maintaining social connections like normies do, so we have more free time than normies in similar situations to ourselves.

Was there a dream job you had as a kid? If you've got enough free time and nothing better to do, you can explore that topic or field of study. I think @wereq does 3D art as a hobby, in my case, I think I'll try and immerse myself in paleontology soon.

Is there a fear/phobia you never got over? Confronting and conquering that could be a good way to feel a sense of fulfilment that consooming media can't give you.

There are many more activities to direct your interests towards; if you're looking to make a bucket list of your own and need something to kick-start the self-reflection/recollection process, I'd suggest visiting nostalgic places or looking through artifacts of your past.

>Was there a dream job you had as a kid?
Not really. All I wanted as a kid was to have friends, but any time I tried to make friends, I feel like my parents actively sabotaged the whole thing in some way or another. If I looksmaxxed enough and was able to speak without a lisp could make for a good Gypsy Crusader type.

>fear/phobia you never got over?
I fucking hate the dark. I know that sounds childish but you’d be fucking scared too if you let your mind go places regarding what the hell could be in your closet at night.

>nostalgic places or looking through artifacts of your past.
I don’t have many of either. However, I do have a bucket list of places I have to see before I die. One of those is Benito Mussolini’s birthplace, which I believe has been converted into a store for National Socialist stuff, like shirts and flags. Would love to go on a spending spree there some day.

 

[Chudpreet]

any time I tried to make friends, I feel like my parents actively sabotaged the whole thing in some way or another.

Can relate

I fucking hate the dark. I know that sounds childish but you’d be fucking scared too if you let your mind go places regarding what the hell could be in your closet at night.

Understandable, this actually isn't an uncommon fear amongst normie guys. I've seen so many normie memes/jokes about how they still run out of rooms after turning off the lights when nobody's home. The good thing is, this should be fairly easy and inexpensive to conquer. I feel like my own fear of deep water would probably take scuba diving/swimming with sharks to overcome, and idk if I'd ever have the balls or money to do that

I don’t have many of either. However, I do have a bucket list of places I have to see before I die.

That works well enough

One of those is Benito Mussolini’s birthplace, which I believe has been converted into a store for National Socialist stuff, like shirts and flags. Would love to go on a spending spree there some day.

Based, my list of places to see before I die also includes the birth/resting places of important figures I admire. Don't know if I'm low-inhib enough to travel, though

 

[TheCatMan]

fear of death

 

[VictimofBpillReaper]

I still enjoy existing somehow. Not existing seems nightmarish. I'm not readu to lose everything forever ever.

fear of death

Only fear of Hell and my mother needing me keeps me from self terminating.

Otherwise I would’ve been gone many years ago by my own hands.

 

[Lurkercel0]

My mother, father, and grandmother. They’d be mentally shattered if I were to rope, though if they kick me out and leave me to die I’ll rope in a way that makes it appears like a murder/accident.

That and I want to fuck high end escorts before I die.

 

[SteelCentaur]

I have too much spite to rope. I've also built up enough copes to keep me occupied and fulfilled all the time.

 

[Ebesking]

I honestly don't know why I keep toiling away at some wagefag job with a bleak future, I guess I'm just use to suffering

 

[Cayden Zhang]

I see no real reason to keep going. My parents only seem to love me enough so that I feel bad and apologize to them after fights, regardless of whether I’m right or not. Whatever they want, they get out of me, because they’ll go to any extent to get what they want. Not only that, but having to cope with being mixed-race, knowing that the purpose of your creation was the destruction of the white race and that there’s little to nothing you can do about it is draining on the mind. The cherry on the shit milkshake is that I’m still fucking incel. My only friends are on websites like this, because normies and women see my existence as a cheap joke, and they often just say whatever they like right to my face. It’s as if I’m only cared about so long as I can entertain or be useful to someone. Lots of people here have been at this longer than me, how are you all keeping it together?

I might look slightly better if I get lean

 

[Freixel]

Video games, training and books

 

[Cayden Zhang]

Food as well ironically

 

[Cayden Zhang]

Or the thought of food

 

[Clavicus Vile]

because I’m scared of if I attempt to end my life that I’ll fail and give myself irreversible brain damage.