Don't know how many guys over 40 are here, I think most of your guys are younger.
Personally I was researching the topic of inceldom since 90s when I realized that something is wrong with me. I even remember 90s forums for incels like love shy and incel support.
My life was on decent trajectory when I was a child-as I was very gifted, reading 2 books per day, memorizing history of whole countries, reading about astronomy. Then puberty hit. I was cursed with extremely high libido combined with high functioning autism and intense social phobia.
Women in my country are very strict and selective when it comes to male traits and if you aren't a chad will do everything to ruin your life and make your miserable.
I was relentlessly bullied to the point of suicide both by female classmates and teachers BOTH at high school and university where some quasi-Chads joined it.
I had two suicide attempts over my virginity by the age of 25.
By that time I was spat on, beaten, pushed from stairs. thrown liquids over the head by my female colleagues at uni. Throughout my uni years there was relentless psychological abuse by colleagues and even some female professors.
It was a blessing that there was no access to guns in my country. If I would live in USA I am sure I could have broken at certain point.
Needless to say that my abusers now have successful careers, families, money and lives. I am a broken shell of a man.
Eventually I got broken enough that used sex escorts-legal in my country-but It only made me ashamed, even more inferior and lose money.
The truth is no matter how hard you try in life, if you haven't got the personality and experience gained in teenage years you will always fail.
I tried so many dating sites, so many social groups, hobbies etc. Nothing worked and nothing will. You need to know what to say to a woman, you need to know how to react to their sadistic games that aim to separate chad strong men from weak ones. You will not have this knowledge or instinct if you do not gain it in youth. They will quickly realize you are not fit for them.
At this point I am just resigned, I no longer want to use escorts as it spiralled into addiction that cost me a fortune, and today even prostitutes have developed such expectations that they often refuse to sleep with me and just steal my money and kick me out of the apartment. Some demand photo before meeting(and I am by no means Shrek) , abs and "initial date" to be paid for. I have been also drugged and robbed by prostitutes.
Currently researching Anaphrodisiacs and how to lower my libido. I Just want to forget about sex and be free from sexual thoughts. In hindsight if not for sexual desire I probably would be a better person and contributed more to society. I really wish there was some safe anti-sex pill
Btw I sometimes read on forums and chans that some guys want to date Slavic women whom they consider "trad" or more feminine. Nothing further from the truth, Slavic women are incredibly malicious, they hate guys who don't make tons of money, aren't gangsta types or who aren't dominating in every aspect of their life. They also believe women are superior to men and men should be constantly tested for weakness by snarky comments, mind games and being mean.
