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Edmund_Kemper
Disregard my larping efforts. I can’t change it.
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When I was in 10th grade, I listened all the time to Korn. I related to their lyrics a lot. I remember a few chads/chadlites who i talked to a lot in middle school and at the end of 9th grade they all acted like douchebags to me, and continued to do so in 10th grade. they made sure i wouldn't hang out with people they knew and would stare me and mock me if i was nearby. i didn't deal with them in 11th or 12th grade. in 12th grade i got along with them again but we became acquaintances rather than hanging out all the time. I would listen to Korn a lot because of it. I related a lot to their lyrics. I couldn't grow dreadlocks but i tried looking like their drummer by having short hair and a chin beard. and i tried wearing baggy clothes and ADIDAS too.
then when i got into 12th grade, i started being the Yes Man and would engage in so many activities and do fun things and meet new friends i could talk to. Suddenly instead of relating to Korn's lyrics I related to Blink-182's lyrics because they write about being a teenager and having fun (except i didn't relate to having a GF but whatever). Suddenly i was obsessed with blink-182 and i tried acting like them and would act funny sometimes. I was so bluepilled back then.
In college, my OCD became insane and fucked up my life and i went to a community college full of ethniccels and landwhales and nobody there talked to each other and it was impossible making friends while everyone from my HS went to uni and joined greek life and partied. But I had false hope about the future and continued listening to blink-182 but also listened to bands like Hatebreed because of my OCD (especially hatebreed's perseverance CD). i didn't really relate to Korn's lyrics anymore except the song "Blind".
Now i'm a 23 year old elder who missed out on his young adulthood and quarantine got rid of my chances of enjoying the last year of my early 20s, now i suddenly relate to Korn's lyrics again. I often listen to the song "Faget" and replace the word "faggot" with "virgin" and i imagine the song is about virgin shaming and inceldom and men who are laughed at for being sub5 virgins. I can't listen to pop punk like blink-182 because i get nostalgic toward 12th grade and feel suicidal. I never got to enjoy college and i'm bitter. I can't listen to any pop punk. Hearing some pop punk guitar leads make me both nostalgic and bitter.
Now i'm listening to slipknot, korn and linkin park.
@RREEEEEEEEE thoughts?
then when i got into 12th grade, i started being the Yes Man and would engage in so many activities and do fun things and meet new friends i could talk to. Suddenly instead of relating to Korn's lyrics I related to Blink-182's lyrics because they write about being a teenager and having fun (except i didn't relate to having a GF but whatever). Suddenly i was obsessed with blink-182 and i tried acting like them and would act funny sometimes. I was so bluepilled back then.
In college, my OCD became insane and fucked up my life and i went to a community college full of ethniccels and landwhales and nobody there talked to each other and it was impossible making friends while everyone from my HS went to uni and joined greek life and partied. But I had false hope about the future and continued listening to blink-182 but also listened to bands like Hatebreed because of my OCD (especially hatebreed's perseverance CD). i didn't really relate to Korn's lyrics anymore except the song "Blind".
Now i'm a 23 year old elder who missed out on his young adulthood and quarantine got rid of my chances of enjoying the last year of my early 20s, now i suddenly relate to Korn's lyrics again. I often listen to the song "Faget" and replace the word "faggot" with "virgin" and i imagine the song is about virgin shaming and inceldom and men who are laughed at for being sub5 virgins. I can't listen to pop punk like blink-182 because i get nostalgic toward 12th grade and feel suicidal. I never got to enjoy college and i'm bitter. I can't listen to any pop punk. Hearing some pop punk guitar leads make me both nostalgic and bitter.
Now i'm listening to slipknot, korn and linkin park.
@RREEEEEEEEE thoughts?