I think another one of my issues is I fantasize about being chased. Not in a literal sense more as in I want that undying loyalty like if I block you on every social media you’d send me emails if I block your email you’ll send a letter with a pigeon or something. No matter what I do I want you to stick by me. Which is clearly unrealistic and toxic and stems from my fear of abandonment but still … lol I love being my own therapist
