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I joined this forum because I wanted to share my ideas and discuss inceldom on a philosophical level. I have had some great discussions with people but unfortunantly many of the users here have used my threads and posts as opportunities to bully me. I was told growing up that being bullied would strengthen by inner resolve and make me immune to hurtful insults, so far only the opposite has happened. As I was bullied and degraded more and more, my mental fortitude broke down until I beme a vulnerable shell of the person I once was. IT says we don't have a personality, well, maybe that's true in my case, my bullies stole it from me.
I can't keep being called "stupid", "retard", "soy", "faggot", and worst of all, "cuck". I get told to "get the fuck off" this forum all the time when sharing opinions that I think you guys will like. I want the approval of people here so badly, I want the acceptance, but I have gotten severe bullying. I am a sensitive person, I am very intuned with my emotions. Does that make me feminine? I don't think so, I think it makes me more empathetic to people's suffering. I don't have any cynical feelings to everyone here, I understand many of you may not have intended to cause me emotional damage. I understand that for many of you, this was all for jokes, and for that I forgive you for anything you have said to me. That said, I think for the sake of my mental health it's best if I not come here. I will spend time on threads that I few less intellectually apt but more kind and good-spirited in nature, at least until I can get back to my original state.
Today I will not go on the internet, after work I will simply drink tea, read philosophy books, cook up some nice ravioli, and be grateful for the things I actually do have in my life (freedom, good food, a nice place with a roof over my head, a good job, etc).
I can't keep being called "stupid", "retard", "soy", "faggot", and worst of all, "cuck". I get told to "get the fuck off" this forum all the time when sharing opinions that I think you guys will like. I want the approval of people here so badly, I want the acceptance, but I have gotten severe bullying. I am a sensitive person, I am very intuned with my emotions. Does that make me feminine? I don't think so, I think it makes me more empathetic to people's suffering. I don't have any cynical feelings to everyone here, I understand many of you may not have intended to cause me emotional damage. I understand that for many of you, this was all for jokes, and for that I forgive you for anything you have said to me. That said, I think for the sake of my mental health it's best if I not come here. I will spend time on threads that I few less intellectually apt but more kind and good-spirited in nature, at least until I can get back to my original state.
Today I will not go on the internet, after work I will simply drink tea, read philosophy books, cook up some nice ravioli, and be grateful for the things I actually do have in my life (freedom, good food, a nice place with a roof over my head, a good job, etc).