Lifeisbullshit95
Another day, another mental breakdown.
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- Oct 17, 2018
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It's so over for me dude, that I don't even think about suicide.
I think this is enlightenment, I think I've ascended beyond human desires.
I don't feel anything, I feel empty but simultaneously I feel complete.
Is like I'm sleeping without dreaming.
Words cannot describe what I feel.
Basically I don't feel anything I'm empty but simultaneously I feel complete because I'm empty does that makes sense? I think not but words cannot describe what feel.
I feel that I'm nothing, my mind is blank.. [black screen].
Is like when you go sleeping and sleep without dreaming that kind of state, experience.
When you are in a deep sleep(no dreaming, remembering state) you don't feel happiness or unhappiness, boredom or excitement, feeling well or feeling bad, pain or non-pain and so on.
In the deep sleep you don't even know that you are/I am.
I feel that I'm nothingness, emptiness, void but I'm also so detached even by these mental states or experiences.
I'm detached even by my perception and awareness.
My mind is blank and sharp simultaneously, I feel that I don't feel.
I'm detached even by my "I" or "my" basically I'm detached about existence and non-existence without trying to make any efforts.
Posting this post was made with effort cuz I've forced myself to do this.
I think this is enlightenment, I think I've ascended beyond human desires.
I don't feel anything, I feel empty but simultaneously I feel complete.
Is like I'm sleeping without dreaming.
Words cannot describe what I feel.
Basically I don't feel anything I'm empty but simultaneously I feel complete because I'm empty does that makes sense? I think not but words cannot describe what feel.
I feel that I'm nothing, my mind is blank.. [black screen].
Is like when you go sleeping and sleep without dreaming that kind of state, experience.
When you are in a deep sleep(no dreaming, remembering state) you don't feel happiness or unhappiness, boredom or excitement, feeling well or feeling bad, pain or non-pain and so on.
In the deep sleep you don't even know that you are/I am.
I feel that I'm nothingness, emptiness, void but I'm also so detached even by these mental states or experiences.
I'm detached even by my perception and awareness.
My mind is blank and sharp simultaneously, I feel that I don't feel.
I'm detached even by my "I" or "my" basically I'm detached about existence and non-existence without trying to make any efforts.
Posting this post was made with effort cuz I've forced myself to do this.