Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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It's unnatural this life I've been living. Cooped up in my room since I was a child, always rushing home. Spending all my free time indoors, all my summers spending 16 hours a day on the PC, like every weekend.
But I can't change that. I can't just go outside and do ... nothing.
I guess having no friends whatsoever (and no family other than my parents) does have some unexpected consequences.
I want a change of scenery, really. To do something different, to relax in different ways and experience other things. I'm like one of those princesses imprisoned in a fucking tower, except it's self-imposed.
But tbh it's too hard now, to even try to change. I've lived this way since childhood so mentally it would be a very hard task to change, I'd have to fight a lot of my instincts and wants, like going through withdrawals, and I'd be very anxious. But my body has also atrophied after laying in bed every waking hour with my laptop next to me. Merely standing up is draining energy, but being outside the house would be e a huge pain in the ass that would require months if not years of getting used to.
But I can't change that. I can't just go outside and do ... nothing.
I guess having no friends whatsoever (and no family other than my parents) does have some unexpected consequences.
I want a change of scenery, really. To do something different, to relax in different ways and experience other things. I'm like one of those princesses imprisoned in a fucking tower, except it's self-imposed.
But tbh it's too hard now, to even try to change. I've lived this way since childhood so mentally it would be a very hard task to change, I'd have to fight a lot of my instincts and wants, like going through withdrawals, and I'd be very anxious. But my body has also atrophied after laying in bed every waking hour with my laptop next to me. Merely standing up is draining energy, but being outside the house would be e a huge pain in the ass that would require months if not years of getting used to.