Yeah I agree, if it happens you probably missed something in your earlier existence.
That really happened with you? Saddening for sure.
I am not sure why it happened though. I guess I am partly responsible for it to some degree yet again nobody pointed out the real issue behind the topics we have talked about here or on this forum in general.
Nobody told me early on that working in a blue collar job is a death sentence.
Nobody told me early on that having an apprenticeship is significant.
Nobody told me early on that having a driver licence is absolutely crucial.
Nobody told me early on that having at least some social contacts are needed in order to become social yourself.
Nobody told me early on that working on yourself only maters if you are young and have more pwoer and are more motivated.
That all sounds like everyone would know it and yet if we are honest nobody talks about it in such way. Do your parents have told you about that or are they only nagging towards this direction?
I also never learnt how to deal with money most likely because I never got any pocket money my entire life. Despite the fact I am 25 I still overrate or underrate money. To me, even 20 bucks can be a lot of money although it is nothing and every 12 year old has more money than that. They even get more pocket money than that, yet I am able to buy dinner for an entire week with only 20 bucks.
I did not have a bad childhood, I just missed out on crucial things in order to become at least somewhat normal. I guess, it is my fault to some degree yet I am not allowed to roam freely since the system gives you some option to choose from and then you have to take the path.
And honestly I messed up, I never took any kind of path. I am just a mere toddler still living with my parents.
There are of course plenty of men who if it way worse than that. It is like I am just standing next to me, watching myself. It is weird...
While it's forbidden to encourage others to kill themselves, I'm not going to tell you not to. Suicide is the only way sometimes.
And if you wanna kys, maybe you could also drag away othER people with you.
The thing is, this would be the only decision I have made by myself. And let us be honest, do you want to live up to 40? I can hardly fathom the situation where I am currently in, I cannot imagine being 40 and in the same or similar situation.