MuddyBuddy
It's pointless
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- Jul 27, 2021
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Although I sometimes say I am on here I have to admit this is somewhat a lie. It may have to do with my age since I'm 27. Maybe when I hit 30 and the chance of dating a virgin 19/20 yo is impossible I'll be fully black pilled. But for now there is still an infinitesimal shred of hope that somewhere there is a foid who will love me for who I am. This hope is involuntary on my part. It might be my subconscious trying to keep me from roping. It might be that subconscious replacing the void left by religion to cure death anxiety. I'm not sure where this hope comes from but for now it is partly what's keeping me alive. I've always felt that once I reached 30 I'd most likely rope if I didn't ascend by then. I'm sure others have said this and weren't able to due to the fear. Maybe I will be destined to become an oldcel. Maybe I'll end it all before then. All I know for now is that this mysterious hope is hanging on by a thread.