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I was just thinking today about the reactions I get from people expressing my desire for women, or rather the reactions I got through my teens and twenties
it’d be like
my friends would go into extensive lectures about why I’m always approaching women wrong, what’s the best way to approach women(“there’s a time and a place urgi”) and what NOT to do, and the conversation would focus on the negative aspects of what could and might go wrong, and how I should try hard to “do it right” and not creep girls out or harass them.
they’d tell me about how they got their girlfriends “when they weren’t looking”, and “you just gotta be a chill guy bro, women will come to you, don’t force it, women can sense that desperation, and many women may find it scary”
The entire time it’s an ominous, depressing and dark tone about my feelings, inevitably making me feel shit for HAVING feelings, and wondering if I’m doing something criminal by feeling a desire for a woman. Why the fuck does society make me feel criminal for wanting something so basic as human intimacy?? Why should I feel guilty for wanting love??
fuck off pls society, painting me like a villain for whom it’s unnatural and undesirable to have contact with. I mean fuck I already deal with rejection and suicidal self hatred, why not constantly remind me through subliminal societal tones and messaging that wanting to be loved as an ugly man is wrong
and the women are all the same
“The right girl will come along one day, just stop looking buddy boyo”
yes ok
it’d be like
my friends would go into extensive lectures about why I’m always approaching women wrong, what’s the best way to approach women(“there’s a time and a place urgi”) and what NOT to do, and the conversation would focus on the negative aspects of what could and might go wrong, and how I should try hard to “do it right” and not creep girls out or harass them.
they’d tell me about how they got their girlfriends “when they weren’t looking”, and “you just gotta be a chill guy bro, women will come to you, don’t force it, women can sense that desperation, and many women may find it scary”
The entire time it’s an ominous, depressing and dark tone about my feelings, inevitably making me feel shit for HAVING feelings, and wondering if I’m doing something criminal by feeling a desire for a woman. Why the fuck does society make me feel criminal for wanting something so basic as human intimacy?? Why should I feel guilty for wanting love??
fuck off pls society, painting me like a villain for whom it’s unnatural and undesirable to have contact with. I mean fuck I already deal with rejection and suicidal self hatred, why not constantly remind me through subliminal societal tones and messaging that wanting to be loved as an ugly man is wrong
and the women are all the same
“The right girl will come along one day, just stop looking buddy boyo”
yes ok
