For the past couple of months, I've been spending more and more time studying, reading, working out, and just pursuing my interests as much as I could. I had a lingering feeling that this wouldn't really make me happy, but for the sake of experimentation I kept going through with it.
About 2 and a half months in, I realized that while I was now in shape and knew a lot more information than I did before, I still felt like trash. I spent so much time researching animals (the one thing I was really interested in since a kid) and got a really good understanding on the subject, but I just felt bad realizing how useless most of this information was. What's worse, all the people I used to talk to call me a furry now.
I'd call them my friends, but they were just peers from high school that I've drifted from over the years. All they do is get in call playing Xbox games with each other, and I don't own an Xbox and have no interest in the video games they play so I've felt increasingly left out. I've made efforts communicating with them (they got mad at me when I neglected to join their calls for a while since I told them I had nothing to say about games) , but as soon as the topic goes back into Xbox games I just get sidelined again and I get droned out. Eventually there really isn't much to say to them. They also think incels aren't real because "if you can get an ugly girl you're not a real incel" and they don't believe in the blackpill save for one guy who gets made fun of all the time anyways, so it's not like they even agree with the things I believe in.
I feel like an outcast everywhere I go, and I know that once quarantine is over and I have to see women again I'm gonna feel even worse.
About 2 and a half months in, I realized that while I was now in shape and knew a lot more information than I did before, I still felt like trash. I spent so much time researching animals (the one thing I was really interested in since a kid) and got a really good understanding on the subject, but I just felt bad realizing how useless most of this information was. What's worse, all the people I used to talk to call me a furry now.
I'd call them my friends, but they were just peers from high school that I've drifted from over the years. All they do is get in call playing Xbox games with each other, and I don't own an Xbox and have no interest in the video games they play so I've felt increasingly left out. I've made efforts communicating with them (they got mad at me when I neglected to join their calls for a while since I told them I had nothing to say about games) , but as soon as the topic goes back into Xbox games I just get sidelined again and I get droned out. Eventually there really isn't much to say to them. They also think incels aren't real because "if you can get an ugly girl you're not a real incel" and they don't believe in the blackpill save for one guy who gets made fun of all the time anyways, so it's not like they even agree with the things I believe in.
I feel like an outcast everywhere I go, and I know that once quarantine is over and I have to see women again I'm gonna feel even worse.
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