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Nothing will happen but it stings nonetheless. I followed the advice here and have been focusing on work only. But I was feeling good hearing about how well I was doing.
Anyways, a girl I thought was kinda cute held the door open for me and another guy, and I glanced at her as we walked up. Normally I ignore her and it was an awkward back and forth with eye contact a few times so, feeling nervous, I just looked down to break it finally and gave her a warm/happy smile without thinking. She smiled back, with a look of abject shock on her face.
I tried to ignore it (optimism) and said thank you and kept talking about my work to the other guy. She ignored me and then I noticed she was hiding behind my coworker, and since then she's avoided looking at, talking to, or being around me completely. Then I saw how she was smiling at the other guy while he worked and it clicked. She was only doing it to be friendly to him and she got attention from the wrong guy, so that look of horror was exactly what I thought.
It's kind of making me sick to my stomach and empty. I should be used to that kind of reaction but damn. I can't even feel good for 5 seconds without being reminded of how undesirable I am. I'm an idiot tbh.
Anyways, a girl I thought was kinda cute held the door open for me and another guy, and I glanced at her as we walked up. Normally I ignore her and it was an awkward back and forth with eye contact a few times so, feeling nervous, I just looked down to break it finally and gave her a warm/happy smile without thinking. She smiled back, with a look of abject shock on her face.
I tried to ignore it (optimism) and said thank you and kept talking about my work to the other guy. She ignored me and then I noticed she was hiding behind my coworker, and since then she's avoided looking at, talking to, or being around me completely. Then I saw how she was smiling at the other guy while he worked and it clicked. She was only doing it to be friendly to him and she got attention from the wrong guy, so that look of horror was exactly what I thought.
It's kind of making me sick to my stomach and empty. I should be used to that kind of reaction but damn. I can't even feel good for 5 seconds without being reminded of how undesirable I am. I'm an idiot tbh.