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My sex drive is diminishing and it feels - in lack of a better word - creepy.
Maybe the "creepiness" stems from the fact that women, as you know, want to criminalize and demonize the sexual desires of unattractive men. Unattractive men aren't even allowed to have sexual desires at all because that just makes those foids uncomfortable. They want us to be sexless human cattle: work, shut up, keep your gaze lowered, do not even dare to look at a superior female. And maybe feeling that my sex drive is diminishing is so "creepy" because I know that this is what the cucks and their cunts want. They do not want someone like me to have a sex drive. And now it is diminishing indeed.
Also, for me, sexual fantasies weren't just about fapping. I always had VERY elaborate sexual/ized daydreams. Some people have invisible friends, I have an invisible parallel universe in my head: a sexual/ized universe I escaped to as often as possible. Not necessarily sexual but "sexualized" or "sexy". It is also the only thing I ever thought about when going to bed. Or, when I woke up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet or because something woke up, I started daydreaming and then fell asleep again. But lately this doesn't work anymore. I'm suffering from insomnia now and it gets worse and worse. I feel tired but wired and my brain has a vendetta agaisnt me. I don't find have any "anchor" anymore to make my mind calm down, there is no "safe space" anymore where I can escape to. In the past, I had those sexual/ized daydreams to escape to, to calm and quiet my mind and then fall asleep. Now, however, there is nothing left and my mind jumps back and forth and here and there or anticipates noises that don't even come and I cannot fall asleep (again). Fapping and trying to find something good to think about takes ages.
I guess many people here wish that their sex drive was diminishing. But be careful what you wish for! It might not be as good as you imagine it.
Maybe the "creepiness" stems from the fact that women, as you know, want to criminalize and demonize the sexual desires of unattractive men. Unattractive men aren't even allowed to have sexual desires at all because that just makes those foids uncomfortable. They want us to be sexless human cattle: work, shut up, keep your gaze lowered, do not even dare to look at a superior female. And maybe feeling that my sex drive is diminishing is so "creepy" because I know that this is what the cucks and their cunts want. They do not want someone like me to have a sex drive. And now it is diminishing indeed.
Also, for me, sexual fantasies weren't just about fapping. I always had VERY elaborate sexual/ized daydreams. Some people have invisible friends, I have an invisible parallel universe in my head: a sexual/ized universe I escaped to as often as possible. Not necessarily sexual but "sexualized" or "sexy". It is also the only thing I ever thought about when going to bed. Or, when I woke up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet or because something woke up, I started daydreaming and then fell asleep again. But lately this doesn't work anymore. I'm suffering from insomnia now and it gets worse and worse. I feel tired but wired and my brain has a vendetta agaisnt me. I don't find have any "anchor" anymore to make my mind calm down, there is no "safe space" anymore where I can escape to. In the past, I had those sexual/ized daydreams to escape to, to calm and quiet my mind and then fall asleep. Now, however, there is nothing left and my mind jumps back and forth and here and there or anticipates noises that don't even come and I cannot fall asleep (again). Fapping and trying to find something good to think about takes ages.
I guess many people here wish that their sex drive was diminishing. But be careful what you wish for! It might not be as good as you imagine it.