ShortBoy
5'2" Subhuman and Failure In Life
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- Oct 9, 2022
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I'm 100% convinced that I'm a failure of society because of my height and my disability, otherwise I will never be neglected by people FUCK MY LIFE I HATE IT
5 days ago I made the decision to leave this forum, I wanted to leave because It has drastically affected my mental health and also because I decided I wanted to change and get a life. I was on the verge of suicide and I still am, nothing has fucking changed even after stopping surfing on this forum
So yeah, I also made this decision because I was like fuck it, I'm going to stop playing this victim mentality and stop blaming everything on my height and on women. I was telling me the problem is me and not the others, I said to myself that I had no choice and I had to deal with the cards that I was born with
I blocked this website on all my devices. I tried to be positive and think about my situation on how I can improve It and get my shit together, I tried to take some responsibility in my life
So I was here thinking and journaling about my situation In my life, and holy fuck, I can't think of any solution..? I really don't know what to do I'm lost, I'm never going to find love
I even stopped going to school (the school where I go is not like every people goes It isn't a "normal school" it's for disabled people it's a bit complicated to explain)
I never had a real friend I always had toxic friends I don't go out, I don't know where to go, I'm lost in life, I'm bored all day Isolating myself, plus I have a porn addiction that just makes things even worse and want to kill myself, no hobbies, no interest in anything, and I probably could never find myself a good job
I never had so low motivation In life I don't understand I even stopped exercising I stopped everything In my life, I've lost taste to it god my life is a complete mess, and I'm only 19
All that because of my height and my disability, FUCK THIS I will never found true love with a woman
Now here I am back on this forum, and now I understand why people here surf all day on this forum, there is nothing else in life to thrive for, at least here there are people who you can relate to
5 days ago I made the decision to leave this forum, I wanted to leave because It has drastically affected my mental health and also because I decided I wanted to change and get a life. I was on the verge of suicide and I still am, nothing has fucking changed even after stopping surfing on this forum
So yeah, I also made this decision because I was like fuck it, I'm going to stop playing this victim mentality and stop blaming everything on my height and on women. I was telling me the problem is me and not the others, I said to myself that I had no choice and I had to deal with the cards that I was born with
I blocked this website on all my devices. I tried to be positive and think about my situation on how I can improve It and get my shit together, I tried to take some responsibility in my life
So I was here thinking and journaling about my situation In my life, and holy fuck, I can't think of any solution..? I really don't know what to do I'm lost, I'm never going to find love
I even stopped going to school (the school where I go is not like every people goes It isn't a "normal school" it's for disabled people it's a bit complicated to explain)
I never had a real friend I always had toxic friends I don't go out, I don't know where to go, I'm lost in life, I'm bored all day Isolating myself, plus I have a porn addiction that just makes things even worse and want to kill myself, no hobbies, no interest in anything, and I probably could never find myself a good job
I never had so low motivation In life I don't understand I even stopped exercising I stopped everything In my life, I've lost taste to it god my life is a complete mess, and I'm only 19
All that because of my height and my disability, FUCK THIS I will never found true love with a woman
Now here I am back on this forum, and now I understand why people here surf all day on this forum, there is nothing else in life to thrive for, at least here there are people who you can relate to