Does anyone have advice on how to take suicide or anything related to doing it? I’m going to attempt suicide, but the only method i have available is so uneasy, painful and risky that it might be too much, second last time i pussied out.
If it’s of interest my method is cutting my throat with a knife. All you need is a knife, it’s easy to get and legal everywhere. Tough i made change and will use two knifes. The idea is to get moderately affected by alcohol first to make it easier btw. So what i would do is that i would take each blade over each other kinda crossing so i can easily cut from both sides same time, press the knifes in as hard as i can and the pull them across as well as i can. Point being obviously to cut whatever things there are on the sides, jugulars and something deeper in the neck. Upon success i imagine there would be a ton of blood immediately coming out, i would go into shock, drop on the floor ( possibly go out ) and the lay there and bleed rapidly to death. If i fail i could easily end up mute and/or in a wheelchair for starters.
Honestly tough the idea of death is the only thing that gives my life sense and calms me down, i really want to die, i mean to put it simply it’s an immediate permanent ending to all of your problems and struggles, peace forever. ( Nobody in my family or circle knowns about any of this, only my dad knowns i’m depressed or something like that, moms side thinks everything is great lol. If i rope it will be completely unexpected and i would do it when dads away so nobody would find me in days )
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So to keep it short my life is a complete mess and i got a bunch of problems i can’t handle living with or fix aside “inceldom” too. The last year or so has been a trainwreck of new problems constantly coming or getting worse. I’ve been overwhelmed for months and wanted to just die. I’m going to attempt suicide sooner or later, was supposed to several times before, but postponed, messed up once and got sick right before and pussied out once.
If it’s of interest my method is cutting my throat with a knife. All you need is a knife, it’s easy to get and legal everywhere. Tough i made change and will use two knifes. The idea is to get moderately affected by alcohol first to make it easier btw. So what i would do is that i would take each blade over each other kinda crossing so i can easily cut from both sides same time, press the knifes in as hard as i can and the pull them across as well as i can. Point being obviously to cut whatever things there are on the sides, jugulars and something deeper in the neck. Upon success i imagine there would be a ton of blood immediately coming out, i would go into shock, drop on the floor ( possibly go out ) and the lay there and bleed rapidly to death. If i fail i could easily end up mute and/or in a wheelchair for starters.
Honestly tough the idea of death is the only thing that gives my life sense and calms me down, i really want to die, i mean to put it simply it’s an immediate permanent ending to all of your problems and struggles, peace forever. ( Nobody in my family or circle knowns about any of this, only my dad knowns i’m depressed or something like that, moms side thinks everything is great lol. If i rope it will be completely unexpected and i would do it when dads away so nobody would find me in days )[UWSL]context;[/UWSL]
So to keep it short my life is a complete mess and i got a bunch of problems i can’t handle living with or fix aside “inceldom” too. The last year or so has been a trainwreck of new problems constantly coming or getting worse. I’ve been overwhelmed for months and wanted to just die. I’m going to attempt suicide sooner or later, was supposed to several times before, but postponed, messed up once and got sick right before and pussied out once.
