I can't learn anything, not even the simplest things. I can't remember anything. School was hell for me, all the people in my class were smarter than me, they immediately understood the concepts and instead I had to bang my head all day with my father who shouted and insulted me because I couldn't understand. For this and other reasons I was bullied and I finished school by pure miracle, they gave me a diploma from a private school. I couldn't go to university because of these problems. Years later, I signed up for a two-year course to enter the working world. During the theory lessons I sucked, all my classmates thought I was retarded, no one wanted to work on projects with me, in fact some of them told me that if I could do it everyone could do it. I was and always have been the last wheel of the wagon. Towards the end of the course, they made me do a 6 month internship and I couldn't do anything. The office manager told me that I was useless and my colleagues constantly scolded me because I always asked for help since I didn't understand the concepts and I always forgot what they explained to me and the various tasks to be carried out which I couldn't carry out quickly because I was very slow and I got tired after a short time. At the end of the internship they refused to give me the contract and therefore sent me home. I've never even received a paycheck in my life, I'm too stupid to be able to do a job. Now I'm doing other interviews with other companies and temporary agencies but they understand that I'm inept and they always reject me. I'm desperate because I need a job and I can't find it, I have no money. I'm amazed at how much my genetics suck, both physically and mentally. I don't deserve to live, I'm human waste. I deserve to be killed and thrown in the trash. I'm sorry to say this but I really am a useless person.
I've always struggled with understanding even the simplest concepts or instructions. And no matter how hard I try to study and memorise something, I forget everything. My parents always thought that I was lazy but I'm just very retarded. I struggle to read even just one page of a book. Because of this, bullying, and other problems, I dropped out of school two years early.
