Hate_my_life
Genetic Failure - Never began
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I'm a lot less active nowadays than I was in the past.
Plan:
In the summer of 2022, my University may be able to send me to America for a while. For the most part, I'll be learning but I will have a lot of recreational time (can explore America etc). I don't see myself living into 2023 at all (unless a huge miracle happens - unlikely).
Why?
I'm an Incel. Not only am I a failure when it comes to relationships, but my life has been nothing but failure. Things will never get better and have never gotten better and I don't want to just cope until I die alone in a cold dark room; never to be discovered. My entire has been heading down a spiral since I was 10. If I had gone through with my suicide when I was 14 instead of fucking talking to the NSPCC, I wouldn't even be making this thread.
Living has been a chore. I struggle to brush my teeth, shower and I'm just tired. No amount of sleeping ever absolves me of my fatigue and even browsing this forum has become a chore.
Why you making this thread now?
Need to write my manifesto. I will not be going ER and hope to put bullets into my skull.
As I am a doing a degree, I can't dedicate hours every day to writing. I'll spend the next few months composing the structure and commence writing in the summer of 2021 (hopefully) in hopes of finishing it by the time I graduate in July 2022.
If you go to America and get to the firing range, How can you insure yourself that you'll pull the trigger into your skull?
-If everything goes to plan and I manage to get funding to go to America and have confirmation that I can go to the firing range. I'll do the following:
-Post every single detail of myself on this forum (Phone number, Full name etc). This way if I coward out, my social life will be ruined (and as such I'd have to kill myself anyway), as identifying as an Incel is social suicide anyway meaning I wouldn't be able to return the forum and I'd HAVE to kill myself.
Will you livestream it?
Maybe in the last moments.
Why don't you go to South America and let the mafia kill you?
These idiots are so incompetent, they'll end up taking an hour just to cut my head because they can't even sharpen a blade.
Is this a good idea?
Anything else I should consider? Is there anything I've missed out?
Plan:
In the summer of 2022, my University may be able to send me to America for a while. For the most part, I'll be learning but I will have a lot of recreational time (can explore America etc). I don't see myself living into 2023 at all (unless a huge miracle happens - unlikely).
Why?
I'm an Incel. Not only am I a failure when it comes to relationships, but my life has been nothing but failure. Things will never get better and have never gotten better and I don't want to just cope until I die alone in a cold dark room; never to be discovered. My entire has been heading down a spiral since I was 10. If I had gone through with my suicide when I was 14 instead of fucking talking to the NSPCC, I wouldn't even be making this thread.
Living has been a chore. I struggle to brush my teeth, shower and I'm just tired. No amount of sleeping ever absolves me of my fatigue and even browsing this forum has become a chore.
Why you making this thread now?
Need to write my manifesto. I will not be going ER and hope to put bullets into my skull.
As I am a doing a degree, I can't dedicate hours every day to writing. I'll spend the next few months composing the structure and commence writing in the summer of 2021 (hopefully) in hopes of finishing it by the time I graduate in July 2022.
If you go to America and get to the firing range, How can you insure yourself that you'll pull the trigger into your skull?
-If everything goes to plan and I manage to get funding to go to America and have confirmation that I can go to the firing range. I'll do the following:
-Post every single detail of myself on this forum (Phone number, Full name etc). This way if I coward out, my social life will be ruined (and as such I'd have to kill myself anyway), as identifying as an Incel is social suicide anyway meaning I wouldn't be able to return the forum and I'd HAVE to kill myself.
Will you livestream it?
Maybe in the last moments.
Why don't you go to South America and let the mafia kill you?
These idiots are so incompetent, they'll end up taking an hour just to cut my head because they can't even sharpen a blade.
Is this a good idea?
Anything else I should consider? Is there anything I've missed out?