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I do not think too well of most girls. But then, at least in my country, there are those 10% or so who are friendly, polite, a bit feather-brained, somewhat funny and usually also religious. Now, two such girls befriended me in high school, and it felt really nice to know them, especially since one of them was being particularly kind, and some of the community here said I'm a normie because she is ostensibly giving me IOI's and she expects me to act on her; well, I have tried, and it did not go well, I am clearly in the friend zone, all due to my stupid upper limb hypoplasia.
At first, I did not mind the idea of remaining 'just friends,' but the problem is – this is not actually possible. You can't be too close, or it could get awkward. You can't be good friends for a long time, because she is going to be married at some point, after which you won't be able to see her regularly (unless you have a wife yourself, and your two couples are in good relations, but that is not an option for incels). Honestly, if that one female friend became a nun, never married, and I came to be, say, a priest, then she could be a close friend and confidante for the rest of my life, and I wouldn't even have to care about remaining a KHHV. It's just that I have a need for some female contact (one person would be enough, really). It's a terrible pity I could not feel the same warmth with male friends. (Does anyone here feel the same?) I honestly wish i never got to know those girls, because before that happened I did not feel much towards their ilk other than occasional attraction, Should've been more heedful. I hope that cutting down on association with members of the opposite sex will bring things back to normal; on second thought, though, getting to know some females temporarily cured me after years of lying down, rotting and feeling depressed, but I am back at it now – it's even worse because I got oneitis and can't stop thinking about one of those friends.
Nevertheless, it might be too early to tell whether I'm truly an incel, so I don't think I'll be posting for now, at least until I am 100% that here is indeed where i belong.
At first, I did not mind the idea of remaining 'just friends,' but the problem is – this is not actually possible. You can't be too close, or it could get awkward. You can't be good friends for a long time, because she is going to be married at some point, after which you won't be able to see her regularly (unless you have a wife yourself, and your two couples are in good relations, but that is not an option for incels). Honestly, if that one female friend became a nun, never married, and I came to be, say, a priest, then she could be a close friend and confidante for the rest of my life, and I wouldn't even have to care about remaining a KHHV. It's just that I have a need for some female contact (one person would be enough, really). It's a terrible pity I could not feel the same warmth with male friends. (Does anyone here feel the same?) I honestly wish i never got to know those girls, because before that happened I did not feel much towards their ilk other than occasional attraction, Should've been more heedful. I hope that cutting down on association with members of the opposite sex will bring things back to normal; on second thought, though, getting to know some females temporarily cured me after years of lying down, rotting and feeling depressed, but I am back at it now – it's even worse because I got oneitis and can't stop thinking about one of those friends.
Nevertheless, it might be too early to tell whether I'm truly an incel, so I don't think I'll be posting for now, at least until I am 100% that here is indeed where i belong.
I guess I'll never get to see her again.
