But I quickly get very bored and the feeling of pointlessness overwhelms me.
Did you ever officially get diagnosed with learning difficulties. Not a burn this is a common symptom and trope, being unable to complete projects or assignments after starting them.
But also some sub-concious, underlying motivational factor why you don't want to finish.
Regarding your question, as stravinsky said, no point starting unless you have a goal in mind and a tangible outcome you'll reward yourself upon completion. Stopping before you finish causes depression, but so too does completing a project and not receiving any recognition, adulation or closure for completing it.
Common incentivization, for me, is the potential for an idea to bring me
- Money
- Infamy
- Pussy
Money- I did a business degree, but ditched it (despite acheiving it) when I learned most businesses are trading at a loss and doomed to fail. Weekly closures as bank and lenders pull-the-plug and even big companies go bust. Even those who resort to illegal cash injections (laundering drugs and prostitution money) that don't get arrested, short or stabbed for it are going bust.
Quit.
Infamy- I kind of scratch this itch by contributing to incel forums- or redpilling normies (although I limit myself online only these days and don't bother risking face to face confrontations. Quit social media 10 years ago due to white knights and cunts sharing my e-mails with people).
I also was having a serious stab at game developing and taught myself, faceposing, voice acting, character animations, level and chapter design. Toyed with vehicle mechanics, in-game options, currency and game engines. That said the game idea was glorifying some activities that had people in them, who fucked me over. So I stopped punishing myself by putting others before me. Plus in hindsight the idea was pathetic and histrionic.
Quit.
Pussy. I tried picking up the guitar at age 20 and tbf got quite good at it through lessons. But playing in a band as an incel is not a good idea as youth and image is far more paramount than having actual talent. I should've known better when I couldn't get pussy as a fan.
I know of 3 incels who tried guitar/music and it didn't/hasn't altered their situation at all.
- Mainlander here at the .co
- A TFL/MSTOW from Australia who plays rock and visits bars. Never gotten non-prositution sex in his life and is a KHHV
- A professional drummer plays in an opening band as a warm up act for metalcore acts. Sometimes in front of an already packed house. Guess what? KHHV posting on an incel forum with people ripping the piss. When he was revealed to be a norwood baldcel with doughy physique it was over before it began.