Christmas is survival mode for losers like us

[LostSoulUK]

There's a reason why crisis lines are the busiest this time of year. Christmas paints a rosy picture of festive cheer yet the reality is, this is actually the worst time of year for many people. For sufferers in life, this is breaking point. The expectation to conform at this time of year is unbearable for people with depression, anxiety, loneliness, social anxiety etc.

I'm lucky to get out of this weekend alive tbh, my mental health has been so bad, triggered by an abusive brother who still visits the house. I had to get some fresh air, had a cup of tea which settled my nerves. In that moment, I encourage anyone reading this to get some fresh air and something healthy to consume which promotes calmness. Harness that fucked up energy into an outlet, can be anything like here for instance. It'll save your life and gets you through that moment of intensity.

It's often the anxiety that sends someone over the edge as it is unrelenting. God help people with OCD which is next level anxiety. Thank goodness I joined this forum recently because this community is some respite at least. For many in life, this will be there last christmas, this is just the reality, it's survival mode, we're deep in the fuckin trenches with this 1.

 

[der_komische]

i will sit on my pc as i do every day

 

[LostSoulUK]

that's me

I feel for you brother, I have generalised anxiety disorder and clinical depression which has destroyed my life. I can't imagine OCD on top of that. There's a misconception that it's all about repetition of actions but that's just 1 part of it, the worst is the obsessive thoughts of worry and despair, its next level anxiety. I've seen a video of a guy who was dealing with it and it made him suicidal. At least you have this outlet, it's better than nothing because this at least gives us a platform for self expression.

This weekend I didn't want to live, I'll keep it real as I don't sugercoat my issues. Its important to remember, those intense feelings will not persist forever, they come and ago, but there's always respite between those episodes of intensity. This is why we should never make an irrational decision in those moments of intensity because that intensity will pass, it'll return but knowing it doesn't sustain itself is at least some reassurance.

 

[BornToLose]

that's me

Me too. OP seems to be one of very few people who seem to get what it can really involve. It was depressive thoughts all evening today. For sure a bad weekend, hopefully next week can be better.

 

[ldarshortcel]

There's a reason why crisis lines are the busiest this time of year. Christmas paints a rosy picture of festive cheer yet the reality is, this is actually the worst time of year for many people. For sufferers in life, this is breaking point. The expectation to conform at this time of year is unbearable for people with depression, anxiety, loneliness, social anxiety etc.

I'm lucky to get out of this weekend alive tbh, my mental health has been so bad, triggered by an abusive brother who still visits the house. I had to get some fresh air, had a cup of tea which settled my nerves. In that moment, I encourage anyone reading this to get some fresh air and something healthy to consume which promotes calmness. Harness that fucked up energy into an outlet, can be anything like here for instance. It'll save your life and gets you through that moment of intensity.

It's often the anxiety that sends someone over the edge as it is unrelenting. God help people with OCD which is next level anxiety. Thank goodness I joined this forum recently because this community is some respite at least. For many in life, this will be there last christmas, this is just the reality, it's survival mode, we're deep in the fuckin trenches with this 1.

Then you're not losing hard enough.
Try zerofriendmaxxing and rotinyourroommaxxing and you barely even notice it's Christmas time.

 

[curryceldesi]

i will sit on my pc as i do every day

same

 

[LostSoulUK]

Me too. OP seems to be one of very few people who seem to get what it can really involve. It was depressive thoughts all evening today. For sure a bad weekend, hopefully next week can be better.

ye since a teenager I've suffered with mental health issues. Even as a kid I was a worrier, then through adolescence it manifests into anxiety and depression disorder. Always been a loner in my room mostly outside of work commitments. It fucks you up over time, some guys don't even make it to 30. A good day doesn't exist with mental health.

 

[BPJ]

that's me

dont u take meds? I tried many years to go without but eventually it just became unbearable..

 

[LostSoulUK]

meds don't do shit for me personally, I've tried all the SSRI's. My patronising doctor refuses to try me on other meds that could prove effective. I'm on mirtazipine 45mg, it does nothing for me but promote sleep. It's just a sleeping pill for me at this point.

 

[BornToLose]

I'm on mirtazipine 45mg, it does nothing for me but promote sleep. It's just a sleeping pill for me at this point.

I'm on that med currently (although 30mg) and it barely even helps with sleep.

That reminds me I haven't taken it yet lol.

 

[Lonelyus]

There's a reason why crisis lines are the busiest this time of year. Christmas paints a rosy picture of festive cheer yet the reality is, this is actually the worst time of year for many people. For sufferers in life, this is breaking point. The expectation to conform at this time of year is unbearable for people with depression, anxiety, loneliness, social anxiety etc.

I'm lucky to get out of this weekend alive tbh, my mental health has been so bad, triggered by an abusive brother who still visits the house. I had to get some fresh air, had a cup of tea which settled my nerves. In that moment, I encourage anyone reading this to get some fresh air and something healthy to consume which promotes calmness. Harness that fucked up energy into an outlet, can be anything like here for instance. It'll save your life and gets you through that moment of intensity.

It's often the anxiety that sends someone over the edge as it is unrelenting. God help people with OCD which is next level anxiety. Thank goodness I joined this forum recently because this community is some respite at least. For many in life, this will be there last christmas, this is just the reality, it's survival mode, we're deep in the fuckin trenches with this 1.

I have OCD BDD MDD, ANX, DEP, AGROPHOBIA, PTSD FROM YEARS OF BEING RAPED BY CIVILIZATIONS HARM!

I also have autism and adhd jew nose, Prey eyes, Balding, Its fucking over!

 

[faded]

FUCKIJG CHRISTMAS IS WHITE SUPREMIST RACIST AND ANTI SEMETIC NOT EVERYONE CELEBRATE CUCKMAS ANYWAY BASED CCPcels BANNED IT BAN THIS SHIT ALREADY AND DECLARE USA COMMUNIST SOVIET STATE RIGHT NOW!

 

[Fascist sigmamale]

Then you're not losing hard enough.
Try zerofriendmaxxing and rotinyourroommaxxing and you barely even notice it's Christmas time.

 

[LostSoulUK]

I have OCD BDD MDD, ANX, DEP, AGROPHOBIA, PTSD FROM YEARS OF BEING RAPED BY CIVILIZATIONS HARM!

I also have autism and adhd jew nose, Prey eyes, Balding, Its fucking over!

sorry to hear that, I have some of those, namely clinical depression, generalised anxiety disorder, social anxiety, massive hooked nose, receding hairline.

It's a cruel world for us degenerates, I've never fitted in despite my best intentions. I've always been very friendly yet all I've got is contempt in return. I've been treated like I'm nothin my whole life. If we didn't have mental health we could at least live in peace but it's a living hell, everyday is a battle with our intrusive minds.

 

[Lonelyus]

sorry to hear that, I have some of those, namely clinical depression, generalised anxiety disorder, social anxiety, massive hooked nose, receding hairline.

It's a cruel world for us degenerates, I've never fitted in despite my best intentions. I've always been very friendly yet all I've got is contempt in return. I've been treated like I'm nothin my whole life. If we didn't have mental health we could at least live in peace but it's a living hell, everyday is a battle with our intrusive minds.

Yes, And id like it to end soon if i cannot fix it! Legalize Euthanasia!

 

[KetamineAddictYoda]

The vast majority of this site is irreligious and have no right to complain.

 

[dziki_dzik]

Not if you are forgettable (thanks to the depression that eats your grey matter) and will occupy your mind from thinking about xmass and family that you no longer have and new that you won't have. Maybe drug/alcoholmaxxxing should be even more effective.

 

[BPJ]

I did

I took Zoloft, then prozac

they numbed me, which wasn't really any good, but it made everything less painful

im just coming off now

i wish i could come off but, i could end up in hospital again

 

[LostSoulUK]

I did

I took Zoloft, then prozac

they numbed me, which wasn't really any good, but it made everything less painful

im just coming off now

how did you get access to zoloft, my doctor will only prescribe me the 4 SSRI's which do nothin for me.

Not if you are forgettable (thanks to the depression that eats your grey matter) and will occupy your mind from thinking about xmass and family that you no longer have and new that you won't have. Maybe drug/alcoholmaxxxing should be even more effective.

I wish something to ease my worries. My depression has been so bad for so long, I'm incapable of positive emotion. During the week I'm a bit better as I'm active at the school I work protecting children for a living. But on the weekends I'm a fuckin train wreck, I'm lucky to escape most weekends alive with my anxiety and depression.

i wish i could come off but, i could end up in hospital again

I've seen people in those mental wards, it's scary. I knew 2 people who went really bad, they self harmed and everything. 1 of them got fucked up by drugs which led to severe mental health issues. I've never seen a guy as fucked as him, serious paranoia, verbal ticks (random laughing, sneezing etc). He threw himself out of a window, even stripped naked in church from what I heard. This guy was once a normal guy, loved to party, but drugs destroyed him. Then they inevitably turn to christ, reciting prayers in manic fashion.

As fucked as my head is, at least I'm not at the extreme end like those people. I emphasise with sufferers like this, I don't judge at all as I myself suffer with mental health. But most people don't hold that same view, most people judge and perceive you as a weirdo if your anything less than a conventional by-product of society.

 

[PersonaPimp]

Seeing everyone happy during the festive season is pure suifuel. Time to rope I guess.

 

[LostSoulUK]

Seeing everyone happy during the festive season is pure suifuel. Time to rope I guess.

that's the worst part of christmas. It's like a party where we're not invited. Those with loving families, a loving wife and kids, lots of friends, beautiful home, fancy career.

Meanwhile we rot in our caves as always, lucky to receive 1 christmas card that isn't our mother and socks from uncle knobhead, the same socks he bought last year from that cheap arse department store.

 

[PersonaPimp]

that's the worst part of christmas. It's like a party where we're not invited. Those with loving families, a loving wife and kids, lots of friends, beautiful home, fancy career.

Meanwhile we rot in our caves as always, lucky to receive 1 christmas card that isn't our mother and socks from uncle knobhead, the same socks he bought last year from that cheap arse department store.

In shadows deep, where loneliness resides,
A somber soul in silence hides.
As Christmas lights adorn each street,
Despair takes hold, bitter and sweet.

Through frosted panes, a world so bright,
Aching heart, untouched by light.
In festive cheer and joyous song,
An incel's solitude feels so strong.

Amidst the laughter, warmth, and grace,
A forlorn heart in a vacant space.
No tender touch, no love to share,
Loneliness wraps like cold night air.

While carolers sing of love and glee,
The incel yearns for company.
A silent night, a silent plea,
Escape from this grim soliloquy.

The twinkling lights, a cruel jest,
Highlight the void within his chest.
No mistletoe, no lover's kiss,
Only echoes of what he'll miss.

Amidst the revelry, he stands alone,
A heartache deeper than cold stone.
In the season's glow, a stark divide,
A lonely soul, no warmth beside.

 

[incel god]

new years eve is just as bad. foids and normies having a goodtime and we are never invited.

 

[LostSoulUK]

In shadows deep, where loneliness resides,
A somber soul in silence hides.
As Christmas lights adorn each street,
Despair takes hold, bitter and sweet.

Through frosted panes, a world so bright,
Aching heart, untouched by light.
In festive cheer and joyous song,
An incel's solitude feels so strong.

Amidst the laughter, warmth, and grace,
A forlorn heart in a vacant space.
No tender touch, no love to share,
Loneliness wraps like cold night air.

While carolers sing of love and glee,
The incel yearns for company.
A silent night, a silent plea,
Escape from this grim soliloquy.

The twinkling lights, a cruel jest,
Highlight the void within his chest.
No mistletoe, no lover's kiss,
Only echoes of what he'll miss.

Amidst the revelry, he stands alone,
A heartache deeper than cold stone.
In the season's glow, a stark divide,
A lonely soul, no warmth beside.

beautiful poem, very fitting for our lonely christmas.

new years eve is just as bad. foids and normies having a goodtime and we are never invited.

that day is pure torture, when the clock counts down to midnight, everyone celebrating with their picture perfect family and friends, their loving partner and kids, whilst we're sat in darkness contemplating whether that shower rail will hold our weight.

 

[BornToLose]

contemplating whether that shower rail will hold our weight

I have definitely contemplated this.

 

[LostSoulUK]

A female staff member asked me if I'm looking forward to christmas, I told her no I just want it over with. She never fuckin speaks me, most of the time I'm ignored, too little too fuckin late as far as I'm concerned. I've been doin my job for over a year and been ignored and spoken down to, if they ain't got time for me I ain't got time for them.

 

[HappiestCel]

I'll make some christmas food for myself and rot comfy in my room

 

[LostSoulUK]

Got an assessment tomorrow for housing regarding the domestic abuse. My arse has to be up for 10.30am which is a struggle with my insomnia. After this week I'll be off work for 2 and a half weeks, for many that's a relief, for me it's absolute torture, anytime off sends me into the pit of despair. I've often been suicidal during time off work, I end up sleeping all day, it fucks my nocturnal rhythm. Sleep quality is a major factor in mental illness, unfortunately the 2 go hand in hand.

I'll make some christmas food for myself and rot comfy in my room

Wish I can cook, all I can cook is jacket potato or anything in the air fryer. I live on microwave meals which ain't healthy.

 

[LostSoulUK]

as far as I'm concerned I ain't got a family, what kind of mother gaslights their own son to enable a sociopath. He;s definitely not my family, brother by name but I stopped talking to him years ago, that bastard can go to hell for all the threats and intimidation, yet he's still present around the house like a fuckin parasite.

Christmas paints this rosy picture of perfect families, life ain't a bed of roses for most people, sufferers in life despise christmas as it's a reminder of how fucked their life is.

 

[PurgatoryPass]

No one even asks me what I'm doing for holidays and shit, and I'm glad.

 

[LostSoulUK]

No one even asks me what I'm doing for holidays and shit, and I'm glad.

For most people they cry over their mother in laws third cousin not turning up for christmas, for guys like us it never began.

 

[IncelsNeverCry]

Christmas is suifuel day deluxe if you survive christmas then you will survive another 365 days onwards at least take comfort in that

 

[LostSoulUK]

Christmas is suifuel day deluxe if you survive christmas then you will survive another 365 days onwards at least take comfort in that

yep, and it lasts the whole of December, how do you get through it personally?. If I at least did something it would mitigate the loneliness but I've done nothing all month as usual.

This has a detrimental effect on our wellbeing as we're confined to our caves at a time of joy and festivity. For losers like us it never began.

 

[IncelsNeverCry]

yep, and it lasts the whole of December, how do you get through it personally?. If I at least did something it would mitigate the loneliness but I've done nothing all month as usual.

This has a detrimental effect on our wellbeing as we're confined to our caves at a time of joy and festivity. For losers like us it never began.

I go back to drinking heavily every december, currently drinking as I type, I will do so until new year and after that taper off, it's the only cope that gets me through this month

 

[BornToLose]

I go back to drinking heavily every december, currently drinking as I type, I will do so until new year and after that taper off, it's the only cope that gets me through this month

Same tbhngl.

 

[LostSoulUK]

I go back to drinking heavily every december, currently drinking as I type, I will do so until new year and after that taper off, it's the only cope that gets me through this month

Fair enough, whatever gets you through this hell. For me alcohol makes me hopeful temporally but that hope is fleeting which makes the inevitable crash that more painful. Alcohol gives me hope but also intensifies my depression. My boss gave me a bottle of wine as a christmas present but I didn't drink it as it would fuck me up. For me it just makes the loneliness more painful. I use to drink occasionally in pubs and I love a dance but that hope soon turned to despair after all was said and done. They say it's the hope that kills you in life..

 

[starcrapoo]

I'm gonna stock up on some tasty craft beer, snacks, game all day, and eat.

Thats what my christmas will come down to.

Pretty much nothing.

If I'm feeling really down I'll go to the casino and get drunk there but I think I'll save that for NYE.

 

[LostSoulUK]

I'm gonna stock up on some tasty craft beer, snacks, game all day, and eat.

Thats what my christmas will come down to.

Pretty much nothing.

If I'm feeling really down I'll go to the casino and get drunk there but I think I'll save that for NYE.

It's brutal this time of year, the loneliest time of year for millions worldwide. This life is a fuckin scam for guys like us.

 

[mcmoohyun]

I'm in my uni library(It's opened 24/7), studymaxx to cope.

 

[yung loner]

I made a mistake today going to the supercenter, seeing all the young attractive couples everywhere

 

[Cnidoblastos]

I'm ok about it. Because I live alone and so far away from my family. Only WhatsApp for me

 

[LostSoulUK]

Years and years of despair and loneliness have fucked my mind beyond recognition. I don't know how the fuck I'm still standing after years of abuse, anxiety and depression.

The relentless ignorance and contempt I've faced in life has left me suicidal. I've only ever tried to do good in this world as reflected in my role as a teaching assistant, yet all I've ever got is oppression for being too quiet, too short with a big nose. If anyone should be accountable its these bastards that have made us feel this way in life. The bullying, the abuse from my own family, the trauma of not fitting in and endless rejection.

2024 can't get any worse than this hell, I say this every year and nothing changes, just rearranges

 

[Incel TV]

Everyday is survival

 

[LostSoulUK]

Everyday is survival

ye I'd honestly take physical pain over the mental torture of anxiety, depression and loneliness. I'd even take toothache over this lifelong mental suffering and toothache was the worst physical pain I've ever experienced.

 

[LostSoulUK]

Christmas eve spent arguing with my gaslighting mother who continues an evil sociopath.

Told her I want to kill myself as I can't live with this trauma around him. The death threats, the fear over the years yet I'm repeatedly told to 'forget about the past' and its deflected on me for being selfish around the house which is completely irrespective of his abuse.

My mum told me she's depressed as well, this is all him, for years we've endured his threats, intimidation, dodgy shit, all sorts yet he acts like he's done nothing wrong. She refuses to admit his abuse. Fuck this life, oh & merry christmas.