I don't have any symptoms apart from lack of care for associating with other people and hyperfixations. My motor skills are decent and I used to be able to build things out of anything i could find with my friends and cousins, didn't have language issues growing up but i had to focus when talking to not sound strange as I tended to use weird words instead of popular slang, etc etc. My desire to use knowledge/activities for social means is very low, almost schizoid tier but not quite. If I'm socially isolated for enough time, i tend to get desperate and start to socialise with the goal of forming temporary bonds or getting a dopamine spike. I do like analyzing people but it doesn't go beyond that unfortunately. People I talk to eventually think im robotic because i lack human reactions and normal ways of thinking aka im a non conformist. I like people sometimes but I can't bond with them because i just naturally don't feel like doing it. I need alcohol to actually care about bonding with others. Lots of people take this personally and think im narcissistic but im not. I'm more apathetic than narcissistic. Am I autistic?
