In my college and I hang out in this building called the "center for counseling and well-being". The purpose of the building is to provide medical care and therapy to students, which is all located on the second floor of the building. On the first floor is the prayer room, where the Muslims go to perform Salah (ritual prayer). I'm not a Muslim, but I go there because there are couches to sit on, and I like to make tea and coffee.
This morning I went there and I see a woman wearing a chador, or abaya (please google to see what it looks like). It was an African/Black woman, and she was holding a child. The child was screaming, attempting to walk, and all the other veiled Muslim women were surrounding the child, cooing and awing at it.
I bring this up because the woman with the child, as well as the other women were either my age or younger, and many of the women who were admiring the child were already married. I recall a man I was sitting in the counseling and well-being center with, casually talking to him with coffee, casually mentioned that he was getting engaged. He was my age, I'm 21.
I as well have a female friend, she's 20, has a serious boyfriend for whom she has been seeing since the beginning of college and is getting engaged. She rents her own apartment, has had a string of jobs, and I'm yet to have any of these. To top it all off, she attends a University much more difficult to get into than mine.
No matter where I turn in my life, I'm behind. I'm behind in my academics, taking a year longer than most people at a school that is ranked rather low. Someone is completing there degrees much younger than me at a University that is much higher ranked. I'm 21 and never been in a serious romantic relationship, meanwhile someone younger than is has gone through the whole college hookup culture, has a string of ex girlfriends, and is in a committed and loving relationship. I've never had a serious professional job, someone younger than me is already employed at a well known company and earning thousands.
What the hell!?!?!? Why is this happening to me? Why am I so behind, no matter where I turn in life? Why is there not one field I'm exceeding in?
This morning I went there and I see a woman wearing a chador, or abaya (please google to see what it looks like). It was an African/Black woman, and she was holding a child. The child was screaming, attempting to walk, and all the other veiled Muslim women were surrounding the child, cooing and awing at it.
I bring this up because the woman with the child, as well as the other women were either my age or younger, and many of the women who were admiring the child were already married. I recall a man I was sitting in the counseling and well-being center with, casually talking to him with coffee, casually mentioned that he was getting engaged. He was my age, I'm 21.
I as well have a female friend, she's 20, has a serious boyfriend for whom she has been seeing since the beginning of college and is getting engaged. She rents her own apartment, has had a string of jobs, and I'm yet to have any of these. To top it all off, she attends a University much more difficult to get into than mine.
No matter where I turn in my life, I'm behind. I'm behind in my academics, taking a year longer than most people at a school that is ranked rather low. Someone is completing there degrees much younger than me at a University that is much higher ranked. I'm 21 and never been in a serious romantic relationship, meanwhile someone younger than is has gone through the whole college hookup culture, has a string of ex girlfriends, and is in a committed and loving relationship. I've never had a serious professional job, someone younger than me is already employed at a well known company and earning thousands.
What the hell!?!?!? Why is this happening to me? Why am I so behind, no matter where I turn in life? Why is there not one field I'm exceeding in?
