its so depressing when an incels greatest cope becomes bland. i had been on no fap since monday or sunday and now on friday i finally nutted even though i said to myself id try to make it to sunday night. while all the chads are out sleeping with the beckys im at home jerking myself, fucking pathetic. a couple years ago when i was stil an adolescent i remember the highlight of my week would literally be opening up some clean porn and wanking on that friday night. i would usually go without for like 4or5 days and then let it all out that night. yep that was pathetic but atleast it was usually enjoyable. the thought of masturbating is much more exciting than the act itself now . i get so gassed for it and then when i finally cum it just trickles out when it used to squirt wtf.im so depressed rn because i lost my greatest cope. fuck no fap what an absolute waste. i despise my existance so fucking much.
