Venting feeling lonely and having negative thoughts 24/7

[idk125]

as long as i am breathing i am constantly enduring negative thoughts and mental anguish unless i am asleep this is the only time that i am feeling free and i wish i was just dead already because i cant stand this consumer judgemental world that judges u by the way u look and if u dont have the looks then its fucking over. i used to cope thinking that it was not over but the hard truth struck me about female nature and how evil people are from the blackpill videos that i watched and said wait a min its fucking true i am living it on my daily life. i was never a bad person in my life and i dont know why i am suffering for no reason the universe or whatever god there is wants me dead so badly so he inflicts suffering and miserty for me. i am muslim but i am doubting my beleifs because nothing seems to work i tried to pray but i was the same guy before so i think everything is a fucking lie there is no god there is just suffering

 

[war_with_myself]

there is no god there is just suffering

brutal...i could relate. at my lowest point, i felt abandoned by God. I'm a bit iffy with Christianity and God nowadays.

 

[idk125]

brutal...i could relate. at my lowest point, i felt abandoned by God. I'm a bit iffy with Christianity and God nowadays.

i am muslim but i think god hate me thats why he brought me here to laugh at my suffering

 

[war_with_myself]

when i experience loneliness and suicidal thoughts, i try to get myself to do something like walking, cleaning my room, house chores, etc. i have to keep my mind busy, otherwise it will default back to loneliness and suicidal thoughts.

 

[idk125]

when i experience loneliness and suicidal thoughts, i try to get myself to do something like walking, cleaning my room, house chores, etc. i have to keep my mind busy, otherwise it will default back to loneliness and suicidal thoughts.

i am trying to mask it by listening to sad music you know

 

[Deleted member 21770]

Have problem?
just stop caring
no longer have problem

 

[war_with_myself]

i am trying to mask it by listening to sad music you know

for me, it makes it worse. i try to listen to something more uplifting when i'm in a low mood.

 

[idk125]

for me, it makes it worse. i try to listen to something more uplifting when i'm in a low mood.

i mean it dosent matter right its just a temporary relief from this fucked up life

 

[idk125]

Have problem?
just stop caring
no longer have problem

but muh foids have it easy and only want chad

 

[HiddenUzer]

i am trying to mask it by listening to sad music you know

same, i dont know why but when im sad I just wanna manifest in the feeling and listen to sad music

 

[idk125]

same, i dont know why but when im sad I just wanna manifest in the feeling and listen to sad music

it hits difference when u are sad and listening to it

 

[Nikalas]

Same

 

[Nikalas]

Unless ik moking weed

 

[idk125]

Same

 

[idk125]

Unless ik moking weed

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