PHp
21 yo 3.5/10 truecel monster
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- Joined
- Jul 14, 2019
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This has become terrifying to me, I've already said it before here, but this is the reason why I hate being an incel so fucking much: the loneliness.
Honestly, I would be kinda of okay not having a GF, hurts a little but we can all satisfy our urges with hookers if we so desire.
But I just can't truly accept my lack of ability to form closer social bonds, closer friends and stuff. Whenever I meet new people I just can't keep a conversation going, I stutter a lot or the words come out in different order, and on top of that I'm a fucking voicelet (brutal pill, my voice is the same as of a 10 year old gay boy).
I accepted that I'm subhuman looking and girls are out of reach thanks to the way this cursed world is, but even ugly and subhumans have close friends, and I just can't have that no matter how hard I try, I simply suck, really suck, at talking to other people.
Maybe if I had some money I could try and looksmax (would put me at a 6/10 at best with extreme success) but I don't see how to change this. I think it has to do with how I was raised, my brother is just like me, for real, but I can't tell for sure what went wrong (besides coming out of my mom's womb alive), I think it has a lot to do with what @Edmund_Kemper said in another tread about being treated like a child, although me and my brother didn't live under such extreme conditions like him.
Anyway, I just wanted to get this out of my chest, it is really frustrating and I'm getting more worried everyday about it, I'm pretty sure I'll even find trouble in my working field because of it (if I don't rope before finishing uni). It is the biggest suifuel for me, we are social creatures afterall, thanks for reading if you got this far.
Honestly, I would be kinda of okay not having a GF, hurts a little but we can all satisfy our urges with hookers if we so desire.
But I just can't truly accept my lack of ability to form closer social bonds, closer friends and stuff. Whenever I meet new people I just can't keep a conversation going, I stutter a lot or the words come out in different order, and on top of that I'm a fucking voicelet (brutal pill, my voice is the same as of a 10 year old gay boy).
I accepted that I'm subhuman looking and girls are out of reach thanks to the way this cursed world is, but even ugly and subhumans have close friends, and I just can't have that no matter how hard I try, I simply suck, really suck, at talking to other people.
Maybe if I had some money I could try and looksmax (would put me at a 6/10 at best with extreme success) but I don't see how to change this. I think it has to do with how I was raised, my brother is just like me, for real, but I can't tell for sure what went wrong (besides coming out of my mom's womb alive), I think it has a lot to do with what @Edmund_Kemper said in another tread about being treated like a child, although me and my brother didn't live under such extreme conditions like him.
Anyway, I just wanted to get this out of my chest, it is really frustrating and I'm getting more worried everyday about it, I'm pretty sure I'll even find trouble in my working field because of it (if I don't rope before finishing uni). It is the biggest suifuel for me, we are social creatures afterall, thanks for reading if you got this far.