Llama
“Im the bad guy? I did everything they told me to”
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If I was to kill myself, how would I bring myself to do it? Everytime I think about it I think of my family being gone, never being able to see them. Im thinking about jesus and being able to see them in heaven (suicide is hell pretty sure) but on the very likely chance that isnt real, its just blackness. I dont think itd be like eternal sleep, just dreaming and recreating another life, your brain activity stops and everything rots. I dont want to die, I cant get comfortable with the concept of everything stopping and thats it, nothing i did over the past years would matter, and if I lived to 80 nothing i did would matter either. I want death but i dont want death