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I watched a few Pattaya vids before I was 30 with thoughts of going there. I didn't and now I'm over 30, but you still have a year left. Gambatte, age mogs me but not that many other incels.go posters
Are you escortmaxxing or what are you doing
wageslaving, rotting and drinking. don't try this at home
You're telling me you're a 30 year old+ virgin?
Yeah, I'm a chronic procrastinator in everything including fucking a hooker. I intend to do it before I kill myself and I have enough money to travel and do it legally. But I still haven't done it
I just want you to know I understand exactly what you mean, I understand exactly what you mean.
I was gonna write something but I don't even know what to write, you already know how it all is so no point sharing anything. I am just really trying to hype and motivate myself enough to finally do something before my 30s. I literally set the same plans in my head year on year and then I do nothing, I fool myself that I'll start soon but the soon never comes.
Well anyway... you're welcome to join me in pattaya or SEAmaxx in general next year (JFL I SAY THE SAME SHIT EVERY YEAR JFL JFL JFL, but no for real now... JFL I SAY FOR REAL NOW EVERY TIME TOO JFL...)
The 30 age barrier really fucks me up bro I have HUGE respect for you because I know the suffering you must be going through as a +30yr virgin, I can't even comprehend how you can manage it, I already live in a state of constant nervous breakdown just thinking and coping about this shit.
I do unironically hope that this fucked up state I'm in will help me break the cycle of procrastination finally..
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I’m 37 so I’m definitely turning into an oldcel. Getting old sucks I wish I was 14 again
I can't handle turning 30 soon. I got 0 life experience, It's destroying me. I can't even comprehend going on for 37 years, it must he hell.
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I think it wouldn’t be so bad if I could be NEET and had adequate NEETbux. But being forced to labor and interact with shitty people is definitely suifuel
Any reason why you didn't just go for hookers?
Personally, I didn't want to even consider it. But reality is catching up to me. I will not ascend. Either I accept this and try to salvage something out of this piss poor life or I'll just die a virgin. I am... I want to go to pattaya and lose my virginity with hookers there, it's different than European hookers, they show you real affection, they keep up illusion, it's all for show of course but it feels real, it feels like you are wanted, like a dream.
I didn't even want to think about this, I wanted a real woman, I wanted a normal life, a girlfriend, everything that normies take for granted.
But I guess my genes decided its not for me.
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i noticed once you get to about 30 dick does not work like it did at 25 and under.
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Oh I definitely visited many escorts between 25-32. Don’t do that anymore as my sex drive is a bit lower and the thought of banging another drug addict that might have just sucked and fucked a dude 10 minutes before seeing me is just disgusting. I can’t do it anymore.
You ok man? 
Wizardhood isn’t that bad. I’ve survived it for a while.
Wish I was younger too.
I just waste every day doing nothing and soon I’ll have wasted my whole life. I don’t know how to break out of it.
Wizardhood isn’t that bad. I’ve survived it for a while.
Wish I was younger too.Me too man
I just waste every day doing nothing and soon I’ll have wasted my whole life. I don’t know how to break out of it.
You ok man?
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I think I have genuinely lost it. My age is catching up to me, and my delusions too... I've been posting on this forum for almost 6 years, and what have I done? NOTHING. I've been rambling about Seamaxxing year after year after year and I did FUCK ALL to even slightly progress towards that goal, no it's even worse, I actively regressed! I weight the most I ever weighted in my life, I feel like shit 24/7, I rotted away every single hobby I had, It's fucking over. There is no ascending for me, that's ok, I accept this now, all I fucking want right now is just go to pattaya before my 30 birthday which is soon and fucking fuck a bunch of Thai 20 year old whores while looking as best as I can, that means surgerymaxxing with a chin implant, nose job and a hair tattoo. But why should I care how I look if I'm going to fuck whores in Thailand that only give a fuck how much money you have?
BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD.
I WANT TO NOT FEEL LIKE A SUBHUMAN FOR ONE FUCKING DAY OF MY LIFE OK!?
I DON'T FUCKING CARE IF HTEY ARE WHORES ANYMORE, I JUST WANT TO FUCKING EXPERIENCE EVEN THE GLIMPSE OF A LIFE FOR ONCE IN MY FUCKING LIFE I AM ON THIS GAY ASS FUCKING EARTH FOR 28 YEARS AND I FELT NOTHING BUT DESPAIR AND ROTTING.
I think you can and should experience that, “EVEN THE GLIMPSE OF A LIFE FOR ONCE IN MY FUCKING LIFE”
How are your savings for the trip? I hear the flight is expensive but once you’re there things are quite cheap.
Do you want to work together for accountability with things? Like losing weight, gymmaxxing. I also chronically procrastinate everything, I was a neet for over a year and basically got nothing done… no new skills, no big job change, I literally spend around 60-80% of the time just nervously pacing in my apartment. I also had a really hard time going out.
Let me know if you want to do that. We can check in and hold each other to goals and stuff.
Dude I just spend the last 4 hours walking around my tiny apartment and thinking things through my head. Yeah sure, I'll drop you a message tomorrow since its like 6am in the UK right now.
For the SEAmaxx trip, like you say, food and accommodation is dirt cheap, flights are expensive but the bar life and the girls aren't cheap either. You'll need at least 200-300$ a night out if you want to whoremaxx in those places. Maybe 100$ minimum. Depending how long is the stay I guess and the quality of the whores, I'm not going to fuck whores every single night out, but also the women there will 100% try to take advantage of you and rob you dry anyway they can, they'll keep asking for money one way or another so another thing to look out for. That's what I learned watching all this pattaya expats videos this week at least. Must have watched like 100 hours of footage.
I basically already saved for the trip because I don't do anything with money, all I do is pay rent and food rest just sits there since I rot 24/7 and never go out and do anything that involves money, I don't even have a car or driving license at 28 JFL. Never needed it since I don't go anywhere. I've been wageslaving for close to 6 years and saved money this way since I had nothing to do with it JFL.
But I need to save for another 1 year because I am going to spend 10,000£ on surgeries this year.
I'll do
- Chin Implant (around 3000-4000£)
- Nose Job (around 4000-6000£)
- Hair Micropigmentation scalp (around 3000-3500£)
- Get circumsized / get rid of Phimosis. (Probably free at a hospital)
In my head, surgeries were like in the ranges of 100,000£, but turns out they are relatively affordable for a wage slave. I hope I can haggle for price on Nose Job/Chin Implant if I do them in the same clinic and bring the cost down to 7000£ max idk. I can also go and do it abroad for much less but I'm kind of scared they'll botch and fuck it up. Chin Implant seems easy enough of a surgery even the most retarded surgeons shouldn't be able to fuck it up but the nose jobs seems like a complicated one, anyway I'll do much more research on this later, I want to lose weight first to see how my face changes.
Also I think I got ED from all the masturbating I did, I can't get my dick hard anymore, I masturbated 3 times a day every day it got to the point where I could cum after like 10 seconds of masturbation JFL. So yeah... Idk what the fuck I'll do about that, I guess I'll just viagramaxx and hope for the best? Idk how that even works, hope my dick will still work or this whole thing is pointless JFL.
The other things I need to do is:
- Lose weight, I'm at 99 kgs right now at 178cm and almost 0 muscle mass since I rot in chair all day. I probably need to lose 30kgs at minimum, that ain't gonna happen without some radical diet, every single time I tried dieting I ended up recessing later and gaining more weight than I started. But I can't let that happen this time, I just can't, I don't know... It's simple really calories in calories out, just don't put food in my mouth I guess..
- Slight gymmaxx? I don't mind not looking buff as fuck, but some small muscle wouldn't hurt, I wouldn't even mind doing steros for few weeks or months if I could get my hands on them.
- Get eye-colour contacts. [Already ordered this so that's done], change my eye colour to blue since I got subhuman bronze shitter eyes, the one thing slavic genes are known for are beatiful blue eyes and I couldn't evne had that. Thanks...
- Get a passport/citizenship. I don't actually have a passport in UK or Citizenship since I come from a subhuman slavic land and I never bothered to get one, but if I want to leave for a longer time I must do this or I'll lose my settled status. This shouldn't be a problem though since I lived here for like 18 years. But it does cost 1500£.
- Get piercing? - Highly sus, but idk, I seen a lot of 'chadlites' in my uni had piercings so maybe there is something to it? Idk about this entry tbh, it's kinda whatever I guess I'll leave it for last after all the other looksmaxxing and see if its needed.
I think that's about it from what I remember. I been dreaming about this stuff for years btw that is why I know all of this from the top of my head, I never really did anything to achieve any of this though even though technically most of this shit is literally a call away from being done but somehow I just can't do it. I did try getting lean but I would just get depressed and start ordering food every day and since I rot all day I got weight easily.
I'll also have to quit my job right before I leave. Hopefully I'll be able to find out when I get back JFL since this was my first ''serious'' job, I got employed here then just rotted here for 6 years straight.
But yeah that's the gist of it buddy boyo. That's the plan for me. What about you, got anything in mind?
You're not the oldest here though.
Yeah man
every day of my life is just being stuck inside my head most of the time, thinking about things, or somehow distracting myself, or both. But I've gotten it into my head that it's bad to distract oneself (e.g. with social media, screens etc.) so I just bear the thinking.That sounds like a good list of things. Are you sure you'd want to leave your job? It sounds pretty comfy if you can just rot there and make money, although I'm not quite sure what you mean by "rotting" in that context. It could be taxing on you or just not what you want to do.
My main goals would be to
- Find a more sustainable job, my job, although comfy and remote, is very taxing on me and I don't want to do it for much longer.
- I'd like to also lose weight and to gymmax. I successfully lost some weight the past few months. Unfortunately, although I'm at a normal BMI, my body fat percentage is quite high, and I'd like to get it down and to get more muscle too. I have a hard time with the gym though, I don't know if I'm just mentally weak and can't push myself, or what. And I also have quite an aversion to going outside which makes it tough.
- Move to somewhere more diverse. Hopefully I could social circle maxx there and ascend through that, or at least try that before going international.
I have to leave my job if I want to travel for longer than one month. I worked the same job for 6 years now its boring now anyway I want to travel for a bit, then idk, guess I'll look for another slave job and rot till I die or holidaymaxx in SEA every few months if it goes well the first time.Yeah man
That sounds like a good list of things. Are you sure you'd want to leave your job? It sounds pretty comfy if you can just rot there and make money, although I'm not quite sure what you mean by "rotting" in that context. It could be taxing on you or just not what you want to do.
My main goals would be to
- Find a more sustainable job, my job, although comfy and remote, is very taxing on me and I don't want to do it for much longer.
- I'd like to also lose weight and to gymmax. I successfully lost some weight the past few months. Unfortunately, although I'm at a normal BMI, my body fat percentage is quite high, and I'd like to get it down and to get more muscle too. I have a hard time with the gym though, I don't know if I'm just mentally weak and can't push myself, or what. And I also have quite an aversion to going outside which makes it tough.
- Move to somewhere more diverse. Hopefully I could social circle maxx there and ascend through that, or at least try that before going international.
I'll leave you PM but idk how we gonna hold each other accountable if we are both such fuck up at it
Tbh though I really got no choice anymore, but the constant doubts are creeping in, same as every year, the same shit that leads me to delay this year on year its always there in my head. But I can't let it this year idk man, idk... I just feel like shit generally, feel like shit 24/7 I feel giga inferior to everybody and everything and because I am inferior. Looks is everything.
Looks is life
Without looks
there is no life
As wise hamudi once said.
Beyond over brocel.
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