Venting I can't remember the last time i was happy

[Incelius Savage]

All there ever was, was depression and anxiety from having to cut grass/rake leaves/pick fruit just to help with the rent/moving house to house/stressing about being on welfare and cant work then come home to a drama filled family and my family never cared to talk to me. The last time i was happy was in quarantine and maybe when i was 8 years old.

 

[Cope_Time]

I found peace in video games, my life was no different either

 

[Deleted member 44942]

I was never happy or sad really. My whole life is and was just a blur.

 

[LesscoBlob]

Nothing wrong with doing farming work. I didn't have any complaints.

 

[Deadgeneration]

I am very rarely actually "happy", but I can feel good sometimes when my anxiety subsides, and when I feel proud of something I've done, or when I laugh at something I found genuinely funny

 

[nowayout]

I am very rarely actually "happy", but I can feel good sometimes when my anxiety subsides, and when I feel proud of something I've done, or when I laugh at something I found genuinely funny

This sums up how I feel too. I would say moments without anxiety are rare enough that it's sort of become my benchmark for happiness. I know it's not real happiness though, just contentedness. Maybe it's cope but I tell myself most people rarely feel happy.

 

[Django the niggero]

Sometimes I get to be happy then I remember I’m an ugly autistic guy who‘ll never a gf. And my happiness disappears

 

[Mecoja]

I am very rarely actually "happy", but I can feel good sometimes when my anxiety subsides

Same, even when im happy about something theres this melancholy in the back of my mind. Peace and quiet makes me feel more carefree and forget about life problems.