Games were fun back when they were a cherry on top of an actual life. Now that I use them to fuckin cope and escape they’re just not fun for me anymore. It’s like my brain knows what I’m hiding from and won’t even let me enjoy it. Stupid mind, I literally cannot fix the problems you’re upset with, gah. I remember getting genuinely depressed and feeling like my heart was getting crushed when I finished Persona 5 because it just hit me that none of those friends were real, I’m no hero, no one respects me, etc. In the story everyone loves you and you get to roleplay as Chad then life just brutally smashing you in the face. It sound so pathetic obviously.
I did not know it at that time, but when i was young it wasn't so different my reason from playing games/reading fantasy than now. In games you can control the character and while it may take a lot of tries to win, eventually you'll win. In life there's no guarantee, and the consequences are far too daunting to face. There's no reward system like in games.
Escapism is the right word, but i would say it's rather a feeling of "fairness" that pushes me to game instead of meeting people. In life you're constantly judged by your looks, status and money. Things that were given to you at birth, those that manage to make something out of themselves usually don't do it by virtue of hard work alone.
There are always enviromental, genetic, inherited factors at play. I really, really doubt someone with nothing can make incredible things. That's why life for me is just sheer dissapointment.
For investments, I’ve been contributing a little to my 401K over time (goes into a target date fund) but the issue is:
1) market has been down for several years now and there’s no guarantee future index fund returns will match the boomer globalization era where it was like you couldn’t lose
It depends for some but maybe you don't need to get rich, just rich enough to afford basic neeeds and be "content" a part of that need is not facing stupid normies at work who will constantly berate you and judge you by something other than "you", Just the skin you're born with.
I'm happy you're taking things into your own hands, you may reach a small fortune in a couple of years if you're smart with your money. I'm waiting to get a decent job to plan my future more in depth. For now i'm saving a bit to eventually resign and get a job that let's me grind experience in coding in a position like a back end or a data engineer, something that will grant me more freedom and better income.
Question for your username: what are the best isekai? I saw Konosuba and loved it but ive heard it’s a genre full of garbage?
I mean most isekais are trash, what do i mean by this? They're like junk food, you can find them funny. But you won't find deep knowledge or anything. I find them entertaining and i get a bit of happiness from them. Some people prefer romantic comedies or slife of life, but i end up going for edgy things instead.
A few that i enjoyed recently were:
Mushoku Tensei, this is one of the best if not the best isekai out of every one. The show is about a 40yo need who did not socialize and his parents died recently, he ends up getting kicked out of his home and gets killed by a truck trying to save a girl. Then gets transported to an isekai world.
It's really entertaining, has a good ammount of deephness to it and it's really well animated. I would recommed you to give it a shot.
Eminence in shadow. I'll just say this one is the one isekai that's every edgy teen's powerfantasy, it's like one punch man isekai. I won't spoil too much but i recommend you to watch at least 3 chapters before dropping it, cause after that it goes booom.
That time i got reeincarnated as a slime. This one is also another gem, i had a few personal reasons as to why i dropped it. But it's clearly a bomb, and a lot of people enjoyed it.
I could go on and on about shitty isekais but those are some that i enjoyed a lot, if you have a bit of time check them out and tell me what you thought about them. I would love to talk with you about those shitty things lmao
) so it’s been a rough period. Looking at the stats I’m not even an outlier is the crazy thing — so many working people are one emergency cost away from shitting the bed, this can’t be sustainable right?
