I keep trying to find a way out of the blackpill. I keep trying to find something that will debunk it. I so desperately want to believe the bluepill.
But how the fuck can you deny evolutionary psychology? How the fuck can someone look at all the other sexually reproducing mammals where women go after the biggest strongest motherfucker and somehow say homo sapiens are the one exception?
Left wingers try to cope by pointing out bonobos, but as I've pointed out with the Bonobo Pill, bonobos are hypergamous and polygamous as well. Bonobo females might have sex with weaklings when they're infertile, but all fuck the top male Bonobo during their fertility window.
While Bonobo females try to trick males into thinking she's always fertile, human females try to trick males into thinking they're never fertile with concealed ovulation, etc.
That's why male sexuality is always demonised and why having sex with even a 21 year old is treated like pedophilia.
I so desperately want "true love" because of my evolutionarily ingrained desire for paternity assurance.
The world is full of gaslighters and liars. People, especially women, love using anecdotes, often made up. At the same time, they'll insist YOUR anecdotes are worthless because you just weren't able to correctly perceive events (the definition of gaslighting).
But every woman has to be believed. Every regretful sex was rape. Every ex-boyfriend was an abuser with Narcissistic Personality Disorder. Every woman is an "empath" and definitely not Borderline.
I'm willing to acknowledge that a lot of Redpill advice comes from dudes burnt by BOD chicks (redpill advice to 'hold frame' is exactly like the advice to be a 'grey rock' given to partners of BPD).
There's so many cognitive distortions and logical fallacies from bluepill people. I desperately want to believe them, but just thinking about what they say for longer than five seconds makes it sound like bullshit.
There's so many fakecels and volcels that it makes me wonder if I could be one too.
Sometimes I even find posts that could be written by me but it turns out to be a foid on r/depression or something. Some "femcels" even copy incels so perfectly that it makes you wonder if they're genuinely incel.
But the power of social media means I can click on their profile and look at their comment history. And it always turns out they're Chadsexuals with ridiculous standards.
I'd be happy with an ugly fat crystalcafe femcel girlfriend, but they all want Christian Gray instead.
My hopefulness swings up and down. Whenever I get hopeful, I start planning self-improvement, etc. But when I take stock of myself and look at my "stats", and I remember all the scientific studies showing that women hate poor short ugly ethnics, I give up again.
I just want a loving partner. So badly.
But how the fuck can you deny evolutionary psychology? How the fuck can someone look at all the other sexually reproducing mammals where women go after the biggest strongest motherfucker and somehow say homo sapiens are the one exception?
Left wingers try to cope by pointing out bonobos, but as I've pointed out with the Bonobo Pill, bonobos are hypergamous and polygamous as well. Bonobo females might have sex with weaklings when they're infertile, but all fuck the top male Bonobo during their fertility window.
While Bonobo females try to trick males into thinking she's always fertile, human females try to trick males into thinking they're never fertile with concealed ovulation, etc.
That's why male sexuality is always demonised and why having sex with even a 21 year old is treated like pedophilia.
I so desperately want "true love" because of my evolutionarily ingrained desire for paternity assurance.
The world is full of gaslighters and liars. People, especially women, love using anecdotes, often made up. At the same time, they'll insist YOUR anecdotes are worthless because you just weren't able to correctly perceive events (the definition of gaslighting).
But every woman has to be believed. Every regretful sex was rape. Every ex-boyfriend was an abuser with Narcissistic Personality Disorder. Every woman is an "empath" and definitely not Borderline.
I'm willing to acknowledge that a lot of Redpill advice comes from dudes burnt by BOD chicks (redpill advice to 'hold frame' is exactly like the advice to be a 'grey rock' given to partners of BPD).
There's so many cognitive distortions and logical fallacies from bluepill people. I desperately want to believe them, but just thinking about what they say for longer than five seconds makes it sound like bullshit.
There's so many fakecels and volcels that it makes me wonder if I could be one too.
Sometimes I even find posts that could be written by me but it turns out to be a foid on r/depression or something. Some "femcels" even copy incels so perfectly that it makes you wonder if they're genuinely incel.
But the power of social media means I can click on their profile and look at their comment history. And it always turns out they're Chadsexuals with ridiculous standards.
I'd be happy with an ugly fat crystalcafe femcel girlfriend, but they all want Christian Gray instead.
My hopefulness swings up and down. Whenever I get hopeful, I start planning self-improvement, etc. But when I take stock of myself and look at my "stats", and I remember all the scientific studies showing that women hate poor short ugly ethnics, I give up again.
I just want a loving partner. So badly.
